Anyone scared to do it because of family?

[Someday_Somehow32]

It's weird because I would hate to leave my cousin with her abusive family, and I wouldn't want to leave my brother either.

But knowing that my oldest brother has guilt about my death would be pleasing

 

[Judy Garland]

No I'm scared to do it because of recent failure posts.

 

[SeenMoreThanEnough]

How do you cope with the fact that your loved ones will have to live with your death?

Personally, I cope with the thought by knowing that I won't be around to deal with the fallout. Selfish? Maybe? But a decision of this magnitude will never be perfectly balanced.

 

[Unending]

Yeah its one of the only things thats stopping me. My mom already is very mentally unstable and very much tries to live through me, which also caused a lot of my issues in the first place lol. I know she would never recover from it. It feels very selfish to die, eventho i'm fucking done with living and just do almost nothing in life but laying in bed letting my parents pay everything for me and not taking care of myself because i don't want to anymore.

This is really relatable. My mom has a super upbeat attitude 24/7 but I know that she has been through some serious shit and may even ctb herself if I go during her time. With her specifically, it is a really nasty scenario that plays out in my head of how it would affect her. Despite this, I still feel like I'm slowly inching closer to the ledge. Quite the strange push and pull sensation of resisting while simultaneously knowing that it's getting harder to endure.

 

[that smell]

Nature is cruel. The universe is cold and uncaring. We've evolved as a species to form bonds with each other for the sake of survival. Grief, suffering, pain; it's a part of reality. Other animals besides humans experience similar feelings when they lose offspring or a member of their group. It seems more devastating because we have ascended from our primitive nature but people die and life goes on. No doubt that ctb would be devastating for loved ones but the world keeps spinning. There is good and there is bad. They'll one day die too and be free from the realities of this existence.