Anyone relate?

[asian.neet]

To the feeling of wanting to be dead,
But can't do the deed or feel too restricted to?

 

[vanilladust]

I feel like I'm too scared to. I don't want to leave my parents, I love them so much but life is just getting harder.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Every single person on the forum lol.

 

[Klophy]

Yeah, can definitely relate, I imagine most of us here will.

I've been close, passed out once and since then, SI has been a mountain i'm unable to overcome.

 

[Viranamari]

I'm sure most of the people here in this forum will agree with you. For me, I have been unable to commit CTB yet as I don't wish to leave my family and although leaving them is hard, I will have to CTB eventually. The second hardest thing is accessing suicide methods which is very difficult in the country I live in. In fact, this forum is even banned in my country and I have to use other methods to access it.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case eternally ceasing to exist is all that's desirable and is all that feels rational to escape from all future unnecessary suffering in an existence I never wished to be burdened with in the first place.

But sadly I do feel trapped here as we exist in this society where suicide is cruelly made so inaccessible, it's horrible how it's so difficult to cease existing on our own terms despite the fact that existence only causes suffering and harm in the first place.

 

[WaffleWoman]

I want to fade from existence like i was never there to begin with the thought of how brutal ctb is for the people around me is the only thing stopping me from making it come true