Anyone here want to ctb due to homeless?

[gracefulexit]

I have Agoraphobia, anxiety, depression because of the two, no family friends due to all being a pos, and can't work but denied disability.
Plus, I hate this fucking fake pos government and the people that believes in it!

 

[Shakespear's Brother]

Although I am not yet homeless, I am economically unstable and live under the threat of it happening, so I wish to be gone before I am forced into a life without a dignity.

 

[Ghost2211]

I'm sorry to hear you are struggling. Homelessness is for sure a reason I would ctb. I don't know how people do it. Perhaps they are just stronger than I am. I see a lot of homeless people, and the conditions they live in. I can't imagine how they do it. I assume many don't have the knowledge or tools to ctb.

 

[Squiddy]

I'm sorry to hear you are struggling. Homelessness is for sure a reason I would ctb. I don't know how people do it. Perhaps they are just stronger than I am. I see a lot of homeless people, and the conditions they live in. I can't imagine how they do it. I assume many don't have the knowledge or tools to ctb.

Same, I'd ctb too if I were homeless. That would be awful.

 

[LegaliseIt!]

I'm sorry to hear you are struggling. Homelessness is for sure a reason I would ctb. I don't know how people do it. Perhaps they are just stronger than I am. I see a lot of homeless people, and the conditions they live in. I can't imagine how they do it. I assume many don't have the knowledge or tools to ctb.

I was in a addiction recovery program that was based in a homeless shelter. One day I was a suburban matron, and the next, I was at the shelter. We had small rooms, but if we relapsed, we went in with the general population.
The homeless know how to ctb. Most do it before they reach the shelter stage, or they OD on H/F. Where I live hypothermia is another option.
The knowledge and tools are there.
I didn't sober up while I was there, but I did learn how to be more compassionate.A lesson that I desperately needed.

 

[Ghost2211]

I was in a addiction recovery program that was based in a homeless shelter. One day I was a suburban matron, and the next, I was at the shelter. We had small rooms, but if we relapsed, we went in with the general population.
The homeless know how to ctb. Most do it before they reach the shelter stage, or they OD on H/F. Where I live hypothermia is another option.
The knowledge and tools are there.
I didn't sober up while I was there, but I did learn how to be more compassionate.A lesson that I desperately needed.

That sounds like a very difficult situation to be in. I live in a warm climate, so I think many of the homeless skip shelters since outside conditions are tolerable. With ample fast food places there is plenty of food if people are willing to eat from the trash, which most are. My heart goes out to them to be honest. It must be very lonely and hopeless.

If they have the knowledge and tools what keeps them going? Is it just numbing in substances, or do they keep the drive to live?

 

[LegaliseIt!]

@RoseyBird . Long reply. Please see pm:)

 

[heheb27595]

YES, never had a real home were I was happy. Always shitty places.
The housing market is at all time low 1.5% available place. Getting worse all the time.
Rent always take half my money easy.

 

[gracefulexit]

Although I am not yet homeless, I am economically unstable and live under the threat of it happening, so I wish to be gone before I am forced into a life without a dignity.

Yeah, I'm threatened to be homeless, due to can't work and nobody to help unless it's some perv that think I'll sleep
With him. But, I'd rather ctb than to sleep with some perv for a home.

 

[arposandra]

Formerly homeless for several years.
Everyone's experience is different, and I was suicidal long before being homeless.

But man, it really really really really REALLY changes you in a way that is hard to put into words for people who never experienced it. You get extremely good days because you know you are beyond fucked and have nothing so might as well be happy, but then you get extremely bad days because you know you are beyond fucked and have nothing so might as well be miserable.

Weird thing is for me homelessness actually made me want to live because it kicked my survival rage into overdrive enough to overpower depression. But now that I'm "recovered" it's like a lot of residual.... feelings push me into culture shock and make daily interactions feel scripted cause I'm physically in a better place but still mentally and emotionally homeless.


You learn to use numbness to get through it however you can.