Anyone here genuinely know their life won't be getting better so no matter what, they'll ctb?

[PrincessInWhite]

Is it POSSIBLE my life could get better? Yes. Am I willing to suffer longer on the off chance it will for an indefinite amount of time? No.

I've tried REALLY hard. I've tried so many things. I'm tired and I want to rest.

 

[dreadpirateroberts69]

It is true that life has its own set of beauties; cuddling on rainy days, birds flying high in the morning, beaches hidden in forests, ect. Yet, when your life has been a tragedy ever since the day you were conceived, these beauties make no sense, at least to me. I will never be able to appreciate what I have been given due to the amount of pain that I've seen over the years. Though the universe is astonishing, the misery that hides behind its distracting colours is far more prevalent to me. At the end of it all, things will get more difficult with each day that I keep on existing. Even those previously mentioned beauties have brought me a tremendous amount of mental suffering. I want to hope, yet hope is such a bleak term.

May everyone find peace within <3

Is it POSSIBLE my life could get better? Yes. Am I willing to suffer longer on the off chance it will for an indefinite amount of time? No.

I've tried REALLY hard. I've tried so many things. I'm tired and I want to rest.

Very well said. I wish more people understood or at least sympathized with this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I know things will get worse for me in the future. I think for me, I want nothing to do with life and there isnt anything that could happen to make me want to live. I just prefer the sound of sleeping forever. Life is suffering and by ctb I am preventing decades of pain. Suicide is the only thing that makes sense for me.