Redleaf1992
Just leave us the f*ck alone!
- Feb 3, 2024
- 287
Hello SS
In posting this to kinda distract myself but also want your experiences . My head all floaty is whoosh mode so hopefully this make sense.
I don't really know how to explain. But like bipolar I get the ups and downs. But they can be shorter, not so much the downs which last longer but the wacky highs can last a moment, an evening, sometimes through to next morning after waking up, but not normally longer than that.
The high really a like whoosh in the brain, I can dancing around flat, my head sometimes goes all zoned out and foggy, I find everything funny even like punching myself. Like all my SH thoughts be they intrusive thoughts or not become like a joke in this state. So the punching, I been having the idea of drinking detergent more, first it was a little in mouth and spitting out but each time came more till drink a little. I worry as I have SN in flat, and that what my 'funny thought seeem to be thinking next'. It's like brain is all whoosh, I guess like manic but it just doesn't last as long as I heard it does for something like bipolar.
Does anyone have similiar, or know what this might be? I know EUPD has shorter mood swings but I don't think it has this manic like experience and it's more emotion driven for EUPd which I don't think this is.
I often wish I could have an accurate disabgoais for my brain but don't think I will ever get it. My paychartorst is hesitant on diagnosis cos of ADHd and HRT making it complicated. He suggested my closest diagnosis was schitzpattentive but this surprised me as I don't get psychosis, so doesn't make sense to my why he thought that was closest match (although he said nothing fits perfectly).
Anyone have somthing similiar?
(Sorry for not proof reading brain to foggy for that, but actually writing this has kinda helped keep my mind in focus which is good).
Like today feel depressed most of day, but some normal moodz. Get home from office then wacky brain starts
In posting this to kinda distract myself but also want your experiences . My head all floaty is whoosh mode so hopefully this make sense.
I don't really know how to explain. But like bipolar I get the ups and downs. But they can be shorter, not so much the downs which last longer but the wacky highs can last a moment, an evening, sometimes through to next morning after waking up, but not normally longer than that.
The high really a like whoosh in the brain, I can dancing around flat, my head sometimes goes all zoned out and foggy, I find everything funny even like punching myself. Like all my SH thoughts be they intrusive thoughts or not become like a joke in this state. So the punching, I been having the idea of drinking detergent more, first it was a little in mouth and spitting out but each time came more till drink a little. I worry as I have SN in flat, and that what my 'funny thought seeem to be thinking next'. It's like brain is all whoosh, I guess like manic but it just doesn't last as long as I heard it does for something like bipolar.
Does anyone have similiar, or know what this might be? I know EUPD has shorter mood swings but I don't think it has this manic like experience and it's more emotion driven for EUPd which I don't think this is.
I often wish I could have an accurate disabgoais for my brain but don't think I will ever get it. My paychartorst is hesitant on diagnosis cos of ADHd and HRT making it complicated. He suggested my closest diagnosis was schitzpattentive but this surprised me as I don't get psychosis, so doesn't make sense to my why he thought that was closest match (although he said nothing fits perfectly).
Anyone have somthing similiar?
(Sorry for not proof reading brain to foggy for that, but actually writing this has kinda helped keep my mind in focus which is good).
Like today feel depressed most of day, but some normal moodz. Get home from office then wacky brain starts
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