Anyone else with close ctb dates?

[toseeyousmile]

I don't have a date, only a deadline, February of next year. If I don't go through with at least an attempt by then I don't even know what would happen to me....

 

[Nimbus]

Very soon. 10-12 days if all goes well. Still doesn't feel quite real but I have everything I need. Just need to take care of a few things, write some letters. I think that will make it feel more concrete.

 

[Homecoming]

Me! I've set the deadline before 2021 first femtosecond weeks ago!

 

[SN?0RN0t]

Around 14 jan. Unfortunately it's not really a choice.

Why? Taking your life should be your choice and however you do and whenever too.

 

[Oddmass]

I'm thinking probably the 11th of this month. Its me and my wife's anniversary, and I cant handle spending it alone and miserable

 

[chrisbate7]

I want to make it until May 2021, that'll be 1 year off Klonopin. I'm trying to give my brain time to potentially heal. Also doing TMS and hypnotherapy to see if that will help. If no dice on all of that I'll be dead in June 2021

 

[SN?0RN0t]

I want to make it until May 2021, that'll be 1 year off Klonopin. I'm trying to give my brain time to potentially heal. Also doing TMS and hypnotherapy to see if that will help. If no dice on all of that I'll be dead in June 2021

What is tms?

 

[chrisbate7]

What is tms?

Trans cranial magnetic stimulation

 

[Kat!]

I wish I could have such a close date, I don't know. Anywhere between tomorrow and 2-3 years.

 

[Avril]

28 days left boi

 

[Bull in a China shop]

I'm pretty much spare of the moment, I have my ideal place to ctb but lockdown has made that impossible right now.

 

[Spitfire]

It is getting close is all I seem to know

 

[Zzzzz]

I hope it's within the next couple of months. I just hope I'll have the strength and courage to actually do it this time.

 

[OopsIdidntwanttodie]

I have about two weeks. Whenever i'm faced with something stressful I just remember I won't be here anymore anyway:(

 

[W’ren]

Early 2021, looking at January or February. Almost decided to go sooner but it would have been a knee-jerk reaction borne of anger, hurt and further rejection and i don't want to ctb with any anger.

Plus one thing is not yet perfect.

I do feel peace that i won't be around much longer to burden everyone's lives-

 

[Lady_Loveless]

Sometime this month I'll probably have to eeny, meeny, miny, moe a particular day though

 

[FatalSystemError591]

My bus is currently scheduled for sometime before March 1st, 2021. It feels super close knowing there is a day I want to do it by vs. setting a day.

 

[_Kaira_]

No set date right now

But every day I'm starting to feel more and more acceptance.
Starting to look more into methods because I don't know if I'll be able to get access to SN before I'm done with this hell.

 

[LonelyDude15]

Mine was last week but I messed up my SN delivery. My meto prescription is waiting for me at the pharmacy so as soon as the SN arrives is when I'm dying, so in like a week.

 

[DeathBySuicide]

I'm so sorry all of you here have been pushed to the edge. None of you deserve this pain, and I do urge all of you to contact a doctor or a suicide hotline before finalizing your decision.

 

[sadgirl2002]

My CTB date isn't really close but I'm planning to CTB in March, the day before my birthday. I will order my N very soon

 

[Marktheghost]

I've made a provisional decision to die by December 14. For some reason I'm having difficulty deciding for certain. So I might exist for a few days after that.

 

[Deleted member 25174]

I want to exhaust therapy 1st. I'm on my last attempt. I really hope I can turn things around but it's been 16 years of different stuff.......if this cycle of emdr doesn't work I'm done

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm supposed to die on January, 21st but I'm having such family issues that there will be no choice but to put it off.

 

[eclipsee99]

originally my ctb date was the 2nd of January. but thanks to boris johnson, my ctb date ceases to exist. i'm literally waiting for the day i'm home alone (which thanks to this lockdown, it's rare)

 

[L951788]

Don't have a precise date but should be sometime within the next 3-4 weeks. Fuck this world and fuck my parents and FUCK PSYCHIATRY. Ideally I wouldn't have wanted my life to end with suicide but what's done is done so I'm outta here. Hopefully humanity goes extinct sometime after I'm gone.

 

[greebo6]

Yes ,its sometime between tomorrow and the 30th Jan.

 

[sudohope]

sometimes its just next day, which makes it really tiring, to think about a day before. I can literally do nothing throughout the day. I am forced to stay with family now, so having my parents around all day and Im thinking of just booking a hotel to ctb, is also a messy thought lol I want to be all alone for some days and prepare myself

 

[Fthis]

Does anyone else have a close ctb date?

Mine is 5 weeks away now and its kind of surreal to think that ill finally be gone.

it brings me peace knowing that things will end soon.

For those of you who have close ctb dates. do you think like this? Or do you not really think about it at all

I used to have a close CTB date. I felt ar peace when I thought about it. I was more lazy during that time too. I was a little anxious but mostly just glad. Then a big Covid-19 outbreak happened where I live and the building I was gonna use to jump got closed. Now I'm frushterated because I have to live longer. I have had two goodbye threads about me and both were failed attempts. I don't think I'm gonna make a goodbye thread when the time comes in case it is just another failure.

 

[Last chance]

I have a job interview tomorrow for a job that will change my life for the better in so many ways. If I dont get it I plan on CTB as soon as I can put everything in place.