Anyone else wants to ctb before things get worse?

[Ame]

I really resonate with the expression "life is a function of shrinking opportunities and mounting regrets". I cannot see my life as something that is salvageable and refuse to continue being a burden on my parents because of my failure to launch. I'm so afraid of not going through with suicide that I feel sick just thinking of myself still being here in the near future.

 

[Moonicide]

Yes, although I've already hit rock bottom. I just know it can get worse and I am not willing to live through more suffering and pain... I will not live to see 30. Making it to 2020 was painful as it is.

 

[passenger27]

Things can definitely get worse for me. I have Bipolar 1, and after several manic spells then not giving a shit about money because I knew I was close to CTB has put me in the hole credit-wise around $27,000. I know it won't be long before the creditors start calling so I want to check out before they do.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I don't know why I'm calling myself a coward for not wanting to face life but I can't take it. I had enough.I'm tired of suffering. Things turned bad for me and I don't want this.

 

[nw7]

Yes! Fearing the future is my main reason to CTB. When I think about the future, I see dark times waiting for me.

I'm a 40-something single man. I have no plan to have my own family. Nor, I have a family around. I already wasted my prime time, and entered the downward curve of my life. I can feel my physical and mental abilities going down. I have no goals, nor a purpose to live. I don't want to wait until I become a lonely old person living in a nursing home. Might be physically disabled and sick; depends on others; waiting to die anyway.

 

[Jean4]

Let's see. My partner CTB last month, I have 9/11 related illnesses, Bill collectors are pounding on my door... it can get worse?

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Yes! Fearing the future is my main reason to CTB. When I think about the future, I see dark times waiting for me.

I'm a 40-something single man. I have no plan to have my own family. Nor, I have a family around. I already wasted my prime time, and entered the downward curve of my life. I can feel my physical and mental abilities going down. I have no goals, nor a purpose to live. I don't want to wait until I become a lonely old person living in a nursing home. Might be physically disabled and sick; depends on others; waiting to die anyway.

I thought I was the only one that doesn't want to get old or being an old man. When I see an old person on the street I scared and I tell myself that I must ctb before that happens. But no one knows destiny perhaps I die before ctb. That would be great.

 

[SneekUponIt]

Also, catching the bus in this modern day and age is kind of traumatic any way you slice it, but The Government is with holding the most peaceful and natural seeming methods from so many citizens who are suffering. It shouldn't be a moral issue; yet the majority still show their moral biases toward the act and subjects who commit the act of suicide by standing on a moral high ground, and declaring everyone who is born into life should have to live it out, without questioning whether life is something they would have signed up for in a sane mind.

SN and N are about the softest methods available, and one isn't very available to many people anymore(from my understanding), and SN is probably going to get harder to obtain in pure form. It will just cause more of a headache to obtain pure material. It shouldn't be the case.
...Many people will decide to jump or hang if that's their chosen or sole option, and again The Government of the world are afraid to provide adults with legal euthanasia! Some will decide on hard methods for more nefarious reasons I'm sure, in protest of the lack of movement on the issue of clean human euthanasia. In countries where Healthcare is universal, imo, it should be free, not 10k+. People all over shouldn't have to slave to obtain a peaceful death, and I'm sure some people don't have the mind too anyway.

Life is given freely, it should be taken away the same way. Maybe a small payment for the ingredients...laws should be in place to make sure the market price for the N, and other gear for human euthanasia should be protected from market inflation in some way.

 

[mathieu]

Yes, I have vague idea of what the future holds... No thanks.

 

[HorribleFeelings1]

We don't know what can happen tomorrow. Maybe the world ends and we all die. But perhaps we know certain things will go to shit at some point and we don't want to face that and ctb before those things happen. Or wait till things get worse so ctb is more logical?

I know for a fact my life is gonna get worse and it already is. I'm researching my method and ordering my supplies. The date is what concerns me

 

[issyishere]

a year ago i never thought i'd be the type of person to ctb. things seem to have tanked hard and they aren't getting better. i hope i just go before things become even more painful.

 

[LegaliseIt!]

I was born in the last week of the Baby Boom. There is already a crisis in care for the elderly, and demographically, I am at the bottom of the heap.
Physically, I function at the level my Mum did at age 80. I am 56.
Mental illness means that I was always NEET/underemployed, so I won't be able to afford decent care.
Not even taking into account the wars, environmental crises, and poverty that I see on the horizon, ctb is the most unselfish act someone from my selfish generation could undertake, and I am long overdue.

 

[Let'sgetoutofHERE]

Yes! Fearing the future is my main reason to CTB. When I think about the future, I see dark times waiting for me.

I'm a 40-something single man. I have no plan to have my own family. Nor, I have a family around. I already wasted my prime time, and entered the downward curve of my life. I can feel my physical and mental abilities going down. I have no goals, nor a purpose to live. I don't want to wait until I become a lonely old person living in a nursing home. Might be physically disabled and sick; depends on others; waiting to die anyway.

I'm a woman in my early twenties but I have exactly the same thoughts as you

 

[onamy]

No, but I'd like to secure a method in case things get too bad to handle.

 

[departing]

Just when I think that things can't get any worse, they manage to get worse. I'm patiently counting down to my day to ctb. There's a few things that I need to put in order and then I'll be ready. I've grown tired of this ever-worsening thing called life.

 

[TAW122]

Yes, I have. Especially after being passively suicidal for well over a decade with many periods and segments of being actively suicidal. I'm long overdue for CTB and also, I'm not looking forward to the next year, let alone a decade(s) or more. I know that all humans eventually end up suffering in life, whether it would be a freak accident, shitty turn of events, and of course, disease and infirmity as they age into their late age. By CTB'ing sooner, I can save all the potential medical care costs, the potential suffering, and of course, all the bullshit in the coming decades (with very short periods of reprieve). I'd rather not suffer all those years with just tiny bits of pleasure that comes and goes, it's just not worth it imho.