Anyone else want to ctb because they're toxic cause of their childhood?

[hadenoughthanks]

Yes.my entire childhood & teenage hood was a disaster. And it made me who I am today. Whixh is emotionally bankrupt & I plan to ctb very soon to be out of my endless psychic and emotional pain.

I completely understand. I am sending you so much love.

 

[PDAnnie2610]

My siblings said I'm angry all the time. Why wouldn't I when I went through more than a decade of being bullied in school and punitive psych treatment in the aftermath on top of other things.

Waiting.. waiting for my bus.

 

[Pan]

Please is someone there to talk to me

I am here to talk to you, my friend,as someone who walks in your shoes everyday, every waking moment. In fact, I can' recall a day when I have'nt considered it. Childhood trauma emerging in the wake of parental abuse is what has caused the problem. YOU were never at fault; let"s face facts—-what child is capable of engineering that? Parents, in my world would be hell legslly culpable for destroying a future.
I know what corrosive effect the bad memories have on a person's will to live. You need to baby yourself and become the parent you can be —-for yourself, forever. Lots of love
Accept the anger as your alone; you own it forever. Applaud it, celebrate i and yes, remember the bullies and feel comfortable with hating their guts. Anger and rage are at least preferable to passivity. Find some passion, if possible, to let your rage work for you.