Anyone else told to CTB?

[hyzenthlay96]

Specifically by a relative/friend?

When I was 6 or 7, my sister told me to ctb and handed me a pair of scissors.

Boy do I wish I had done it.

 

[Memoka]

Dad.
i was 18/20/21.
He drinks heavily (sometimes). But he said it sober.
Feel nothing about it. Should ask him for help ahahaha

 

[hyzenthlay96]

Dad.
i was 18/20/21.
He drinks heavily (sometimes). But he said it sober.
Feel nothing about it.

All I remember thinking was do it do it do it as I held the scissors all by myself in the bathroom. Unfortunately my little mind pussied out.

Sorry you went through it too, glad I'm not alone.

 

[Memoka]

All I remember thinking was do it do it do it as I held the scissors all by myself in the bathroom. Unfortunately my little mind pussied out.

Sorry you went through it too, glad I'm not alone.

Same man.
maybe it's for the best.

maybe tomorrow will be better.

 

[Mr. Squiggles]

Dad.
i was 18/20/21.
He drinks heavily (sometimes). But he said it sober.
Feel nothing about it. Should ask him for help ahahaha

same. it hurt when he said he doesnt care for anything that i care for, but the 'it would be easier for everyone if i just killed myself' was nothing special. i guess he even tried to help sometimes, haha. mother said something similar. but she beat me since before i have memories, so that's normal.
i think the people i fell in love with that say 'it doesn't make a difference if i exist or not' counts. they're right, and people dont care

 

[Ookami]

My mother said it to me when I was a high school bully/delinquent. I often thought I'd deserved to hear it, especially because I had caused so many other people to want to CTB.

 

[hyzenthlay96]

My mother said it to me when I was a high school bully/delinquent. I often thought I'd deserved to hear it, especially because I had caused so many other people to want to CTB.

We didn't chose this life. This life chose us

 

[l0stc4use]

my mom gets mad at me when i have breakdowns or tell her i wanna die and says "let's go take pills together" or says "here's ur pills" because she keeps them locked up so i can't get to them and overdose.

 

[hyzenthlay96]

my mom gets mad at me when i have breakdowns or tell her i wanna die and says "let's go take pills together" or says "here's ur pills" because she keeps them locked up so i can't get to them and overdose.

My condolences to your messed up childhood. Hope you're in a better place.

 

[goodbye_._]

One of my classmates in 6th grade told me "do it, you want to anyways." That stuck with me. And one of my former friends told me to die. She also made fun of my attempt to the people who were making fun of me so fuck her.

 

[hyzenthlay96]

One of my classmates in 6th grade told me "do it, you want to anyways." That stuck with me. And one of my former friends told me to die. She also made fun of my attempt to the people who were making fun of me so fuck her.

Bullies and fake friends were definitely the worse in those school days. I'm sorry you went through that. People suck.

 

[Avyn]

My mom told me a few times to kill myself years ago, once in response to my sh. It's not that recent, however those words still stick with me and I'm sure she wouldn't mind telling me that again if she knew I am suicidal.

I'm sorry you went through that as a young child, that must've been so traumatizing... I wonder why your sister would say that to you at such an age. People are really cruel :(

 

[MyLifeisHell]

My hog bitch mother has.

 

[Hitakiri]

my mom gets mad at me when i have breakdowns or tell her i wanna die and says "let's go take pills together" or says "here's ur pills" because she keeps them locked up so i can't get to them and overdose.

I wonder if she has/had similar struggles. Our tendency towards breakdowns is often a trait inherited by our parents. If they don't show it as much, it's usually due to them having more time to learn how to better cope.

My mother is bipolar, and when I was younger she'd say things like "I wish you were never born." And "I regret having you." But it was always when she herself was having a breakdown. She was an addict. Her breakdowns were bad, and often lead to me being severly beaten as a child. One time during a particularly bad trip, she thought she saw a devil on my shoulder, and the only way to save me was to kill me. She broke a mirror with her bare hands and grabbed a shard of glass so tightly, it tore into her hand. Blood dripped to the floor as she approached me, apologizing and crying, saying that she needed to kill me, or I was damned.

Watching her, and others around me, taught me to better manage my own struggles. I still have them. I'm deeply depressive. But I'm at peace with that, it's in my nature. In time, she got better. She's been sober for a decade, rarely has breakdowns. I've always known she loves me, it's just sometimes in the spur of the moment, our minds can crack and we can become something we're not. I've certainly had my own struggles with breakdowns. Makes me wonder if perhaps she's frustrated with seeing you go through the struggles she used to, or her own mother used to.

One of my classmates in 6th grade told me "do it, you want to anyways." That stuck with me. And one of my former friends told me to die. She also made fun of my attempt to the people who were making fun of me so fuck her.

A knife in the back from an enemy is expected. We pull it out and move on. A knife in the back from a friend, though? That sticks with us. Some things, you just don't move on from.

 

[hyzenthlay96]

My mom told me a few times to kill myself years ago, once in response to my sh. It's not that recent, however those words still stick with me and I'm sure she wouldn't mind telling me that again if she knew I am suicidal.

I'm sorry you went through that as a young child, that must've been so traumatizing... I wonder why your sister would say that to you at such an age. People are really cruel :

My mom told me a few times to kill myself years ago, once in response to my sh. It's not that recent, however those words still stick with me and I'm sure she wouldn't mind telling me that again if she knew I am suicidal.

I'm sorry you went through that as a young child, that must've been so traumatizing... I wonder why your sister would say that to you at such an age. People are really cruel :(

My aunt told me the same thing in hs she said why don't I slice downward I was like bish you right lmao

Why would my sister say that? Because I'm the middle child, the black sheep, the most hated child. XD life hasn't been finer.