Anyone else thinking about not leaving a note?

[sicknessuntodeath]

For a long time, I was a don't leave a note person, but as time has passed and my situation has become less bearable, it started to write itself, just tell everyone that I was doomed from the start by poor genetics (on my Fathers side, he is deceased and will not be able to read the letter, knowing my mom she would feel better hearing I feel the genes were from his side) and talking about how indifferent I feel about not being depressed 24/7 365. How I'm not angry,sad,happy or anything else, just content to see what's next.

 

[crimea_river]

I've outlined my position (albeit verbally) on numerous occasions to people that supposedly care. I'm a person that's generally never taken life that seriously and maybe that means I'm not taken seriously, who knows.

I don't have the energy, or the inclination, to write down what I've already said. Furthermore, if it hasn't already been heard and understood, I feel like I'd just be guilty of repetition anyway.

So, no I shan't be leaving notes, I reserve the right to change my mind, of course, especially if something extremely profound springs to mind

 

[「 」]

I don't think i'll be leaving a note, i feel it would go on and on as my reasons for suicide would require waaay too much explaining about intersectionality which i don't feel qualified to even write.

i feel the people close to me already know, imagine, or can sympathize why i killed myself. or they can turn a blind-eye as usual

 

[BipolarExpat]

I just don't know...

Rough draft:


Please know that I love you all dearly and trust you can move on but I made my decision to leave as I feel I've suffered enough. The weight truly became too heavy and certainly greater men & women than I have succumbed.
Nothing you could have said or done would have ultimately changed my mind, so please never blame yourself - not even for a second.

 

[LifeIsNotFun]

Yeah, you're right. At first I was worried about them reading detailed stuff to family but I don't plan on writing very much now so it shouldn't matter.

Keep it short, simple and write from the heart. You got this.

 

[blanketyblk]

There will be no note from me. no point everyone i cared about has already checked out. all that will be near me is a copy of my will / drivers license and the phone number of my lawyer to handle the everything else.

 

[Camille Lejeune]

I don't have much to say and people I care already know about my situation. No note.

 

[Hel]

This is why I want to hide that's a suicide. Because if people finds out that it's suicide and I didn't leave a note, they will be hurt, but what if I do? What could I say in that note? "I'm sorry. I am not good enough for anything and I can't stand a life of never having what I need. nobody's fault only mine". They would blame theirselves equally. There's nothing I could say that would make it easy. This is why my main concern is making it seem like an accident or (the most difficult), a natural death. This is why this is taking me so long.

 

[medicinenightmares]

I don't plan on leaving a note. I've written a few suicide notes in my life for past attempts, but I figure I just don't really have anything left to say.

 

[Crystal Labeija]

I will leave a note for two reasons: (1) explain why I did it; and (2) put people on notice that I'm dead so they would know why I'm not responding to their calls or texts. I'm in so much emotional pain right now. My capacity for joy is running out. I'm waiting for the moment till my capacity for joy disappears so I can catch the bus. If the people in my life truly love me, they would respect my decision to choose the bus over reality.

There is simply no scenario whereby which I can find happiness in this world. That's why I choose the alternative. Anyone who loves me would know this and understand this.

 

[GeorgeJL]

You should leave a note.

HOW TO WRITE A SUICIDE NOTE

HOW TO WRITE A SUICIDE NOTE

 

[johnonymous]

I will leave a note for two reasons: (1) explain why I did it; and (2) put people on notice that I'm dead so they would know why I'm not responding to their calls or texts.

This, exactly. The people I leave behind need to know THEY ARE NOT TO BLAME.

 

[Oblivion Lover]

I would like to leave a long and detailed note explaining to people that my decision wasn't irrational and was completely justified, but I have no idea of how to start, so I'm probably not leaving a note. There should be a guide to writing a suicide note in this site. It would be very helpful.

 

[thedutchguy]

Don't know if I leave a note. Some may know what I plan to do. They also got a time frame between now and then. Did told my best friends what I'm planning etc etc. Rather have them ask the questions they want to know. They know I suffer a lot they do understand the why. Ofcourse they say you will be missed the standard answer. But do see I all ready made up my mind. So if I do leave a note it is for my sister all tho she knows I do suffer so maybe I will maybe I won't. Don't made up my mind on it yet.

 

[andy69]

Do the police read the suicide note?

 

[thedutchguy]

Do the police read the suicide note?

In the Netherlands yeah. They read them first in the investigation then give them on who there written for.

Don't know in other countries tho

 

[AtomicNewt]

I would like to leave a long and detailed note explaining to people that my decision wasn't irrational and was completely justified, but I have no idea of how to start, so I'm probably not leaving a note. There should be a guide to writing a suicide note in this site. It would be very helpful.

Someone just above you on this thread has left a link to detailed guide, if it helps you :)

 

[Juggernaut]

I'll leave one and keep it short. I want people to know I thought about this but mainly I want to endure my family does not discover my body by accident, I will tell them to call the police when they find my note. I will also need to leave instructions for my two remaining dogs who I hope will stay in the family as well as what I would like done with my body.

I think a note, any note, offers some comfort and closure to those we leave behind rather than nothing

I read one where a man shot himself and his note read " Sorry about the mess"

Another one was from a police officer " If you come home snd find the front door open, dont go into the basement just call police"

I don't like any note that points fingers at other people for petty things though...go out with class

 

[inconsequential]

Nobody will require a note.

Anyone who knows me well at all knows that I've wanted to CTB since I was 9, that I've had attempts, and that I will attempt again. Everyone knows that when I die, it will likely be because I CTB, or something awful happens medically before I get a chance.

There is no need for me to leave behind a paper trail of shit for police to comb over and likely never give to the intended recipient.

 

[DLS02]

No note. No one to read it.

 

[Pupuce]

I won't because i don't want to. If they wanted to know why i did this they should have listened

 

[AngelGirl]

When I was a teenager I once wrote a suicide note. I hid it behind my favorite painting in my room. I discarded it later. No one in my family knows.

I think I won't be doing it now. I just don't want to communicate with anyone.
Thought of writing a will so all my money (although I have very little) can go to a no kill cat shelter. But writing a will will take money I don't think I can afford that.

So no, I won't be leaving a suicide note or a will.

 

[Ixtabba]

I think it would cause more pain leaving a note... im not sure. I still am indecisive about that.

 

[a_strange_day]

leave a note ? I never even tried to explain myself in my lifetime so it would be hypocritical to do it just before dying. people who mattered have long forgotten me I hope and it's better this way.

 

[Bardia]

I won't be leaving a note because I'm hoping for it to be very non-obvious that I was a suicide victim. Too many people don't understand; either they'll blame themselves or they'll castigate me with "how selfish," etc. It's just a mundane tragedy, since death comes for us all.

So, no statement. No goodbye. Just die. That's what I want for me.

 

[sunny.sativa]

Y'know, I personally wouldn't leave a note.

On my previous attempts, I had written out letters to each significant family member.. all.. three of them... lol, but I realized later on that.. that's not helpful for them. I'm DEAD and a piece of paper with my whiny bullshit is just going to piss them off and leave them with questions they'll never get the answers to, which is just further vexing for them.

I'd leave gifts, I think. Which, no, that's not "helpful" nor does it offer solace, but I'd want them to have something nice from me, something personal for each of them to keep forever, if they wanted.

A note would feel cliché. (Not bashing them, not saying they're a bad idea, if you were to leave a note, I love that. This is just personal standpoint.)

 

[Emily123]

Yes . I will do this and make these people resposible for my death .
1-The Thai surgeon who botched my face and made my face like monester
2-The Australia governement because they let some stupid managers with trans phobia destroy my life
3- The Us governement because I found an American doctor to do revision on my face and they did not give me Visa to travel to America because of the place of my birth

 

[Hel]

My only will is that my organs can be donated and I already put that in order, I am officially a donor. For the rest, as I said, I am obsessed with cocealing that it will be suicide, so no note, never

 

[Reaper44]

I don't think I'll be leaving a note specifically. Every time I sit down to write one, I'm so overwhelmed since I don't even know where to start. And even if I did write and leave a note, there's no way my family would ever understand exactly what I went through. When I first started planning to CTB, I started to write about it in a journal. Mostly why and how I would do it, along with what I went through every day. Kind of like a diary in a way. I have two journals with that writing, and I've been debating whether or not I should leave those. Half the time I look at them I just want to burn them, but they may be the closest I ever get to explaining why I did it. They're no formal note, but I'm pretty sure I'll leave them.

 

[Ch92921]

won't be leaving a note, but that's mostly because I've already told my family how I feel.