I'm struggling with a Poly-addiction, if it's psychoactive and it's in my hand, I would take it(when I'm not at a path of recovery) but weed is my primary go to for some reason, even tho I prefer other substances, alot of people don't get addicted to weed or produce withdrawal effects from trying to stop, but alot of people are not all the people.
I understand your struggle and I'm sorry life lead you to it, I know your pain, sending a lot of love and hugs, you can win the addiction! <3