Anyone else resistant to meds?

[Abyss Dweller]

What we tried so far: (by we I mean the psychiatrist and I):
- Lexapro (Escitalopram): did absolutely nothing other than making me sleepy
- Zoloft (Sertraline): did absolutely nothing, didn't even make me sleepy
- Xanax (Alprazolam): did absouletly nothing, didn't even make me sleepy
- Ativan (Lorazepam): did absoultely nothing, didn't even make me sleepy
- Remeron (Mirtazapine): did absoultely nothing, didn't even make me sleep

I'm currently on Zyprexa (Olanzapine) and Paxil (Paroxetine). I think these are the closest to actually doing something but I still have pure O, I still want to kill the fuck myself and I'm still a depressed mess so I wouldn't call them a success.

This is the 3rd psychiatrist I'm seeing. She has 5 starts. She is actually very good and she does this cause she enjoys it. (She works in both private and state financed facilities)
So its not her. Its me. Me and my fucking brain.

 

[fruitcup333]

have you ever gotten a (i think it's called) gene site before? they like test to see which medications would work best based on your genetics i think? sorry if i'm wrong. i've gotten one before but it was a long time ago.

 

[weetabix]

Honestly same no meds have ever done anything except make me shut eye at random times

 

[etherealgoddess]

have you ever gotten a (i think it's called) gene site before? they like test to see which medications would work best based on your genetics i think? sorry if i'm wrong. i've gotten one before but it was a long time ago.

Cool. I'm going to look that up. Thx for mentioning that

 

[YourLocalSadGirly]

I second the idea of gene site testing. I would've gone through like 5 different drugs before getting on the one that actually works for me otherwise. Also something to note is that, in my experience, depression meds won't actually decrease your suicidality, they only help with symptoms like low energy, lack of interest in things, etc. Good luck with finding the right medication. I think that there's definitely something out there that will help you, you just need to find it <3.

 

[Abyss Dweller]

Eh guys I don't know.. I'm getting fairly certain I won't make it to 40.
I tried.. I did what I could, I went to therapy but I'm done.. I'm just done..

 

[dhk96]

From what I can remember, pretty much all of them did nothing or made things worse.

Lithium, Risperidone, Lexapro, Abilify, Seroquel (never again), Prozac (never again), Wellbutrin (idk if it even does anything but it's the only one I'm still taking).

Vyvanse (only tried low dosage) was the only thing that felt like it helped, not for the depression/suicidal ideation, but to counteract the extreme tiredness/motivation loss caused by the Prozac. I'd rather deal with the OCD/anxiety than take Prozac again.