anyone else rather ctb than choose life no matter what?

[iwantdeath6969]

no matter what, i hate myself and being forced to live with myself. imagine the person you hate most in the world, but being forced to be with them 24/7. i just hate myself so much and have no desire to live with myself anymore, so even if my life was "bearable", i'd still have to live with myself, which to me is the worst fate i can imagine.

 

[Avyn]

I can understand where you're coming from. Although I don't hate myself for who I am personally, I hate the cruel world and the jail of flesh called my body.
I feel completely disconnected from humans and life, like I'm not supposed to be here, but somewhere else.
No matter the amount of money, love or care I'd ever have, it's still great pain and suffering living like this. Even if I lived the greatest life possible, on medication and being able to get anything I want, I'd still rather ctb because I hate this world and it's (mostly) cruel people.

 

[FuneralCry]

Absolutely. I despise life in itself and view existence as being the true problem, under no circumstances could I ever wish to be burdened by existence, I'm not delusional to the point that I would wish to exist in this world filled with harm and risks, where all that lies ahead is our inevitable deterioration from age. Life is completely futile and unnecessary with unlimited potential for us to be tortured, so of course suicide is the more logical option to wanting to irrationally exist in this hell. I view returning to nonexistence as being the most ideal thing, as the existence of life disgusts me and I wish to avoid all suffering. Suicide is self care as it would solve every problem, and I see so much beauty in being unable to be tormented by life.