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weisel

Member
Jul 2, 2023
24
Am I the only one who prays at night to not wake up?
I've been praying for this since I was 13 years old. I'm 31 now. I was just wondering if anyone else did.
 
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meatclown

meatclown

Encephalopathyathon
Jan 24, 2023
27
I have faith too
 
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MyChoiceAlone

MyChoiceAlone

sleep deprived and/or drunk
Jul 23, 2023
1,231
when i wake, i'm a bit of a zombie. when i can form a thought, it is 'shit i woke up again'
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,730
I don't pray anymore but it is a hope each night that I won't and it's always a crushing disappointment when I do.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,247
I'm with you!! I wish for a natural death every evening while sleeping for quite some time. You're not alone with this desire!
 
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stillmirenai

stillmirenai

everything is fragile.
Mar 29, 2023
292
I'm not religious, but I have prayed on occasions for my death, ever since I was 14. It's ironic there's so many ways for society to help you stay alive, yet barely any options for those who want to catch a ride on the bus.
 
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アホペンギン

アホペンギン

Jul 10, 2023
2,191
I pray for this every single night, have been doing it since I was 12. I'm 18 now. Unfortunately, I was never lucky enough for my desires to be answered.
 
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ChronicPain23

ChronicPain23

Member
Jun 22, 2023
87
I don't pray, because it won't do anything.
I just want to fall asleep and not wake up, just die.
 
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GreenBanana23

GreenBanana23

Suicidal Banana
Mar 5, 2023
78
Honestly wondering if there's something I could take or do to enhance the possibility of passing during sleep
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,247
Honestly wondering if there's something I could take or do to enhance the possibility of passing during sleep
It's either you want to pass out and CTB while being asleep or you don't. Imo there's nothing in between just to "enhance the possibility". Far too much risk of failure and risks for permanent physical damage.

Passing out while sleeping is imo best with researched drug/med ODs as described in the PPeH.
 
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ihatethisplanet

ihatethisplanet

Member
Jun 21, 2023
73
I keep asking God to take whatever remaining years I have and give them to someone ill who wants to live. It will never work. Knowing my luck, if I don't ctb, I will live to my 90s like both of my grandmothers. I feel so trapped here. CTB goes against my faith, but I just don't know how I'm going to manage being stuck here for gosh knows how long.

And although my faith doesn't believe in reincarnation, I'm still afraid it exists and I'll have to come back here.
 
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DazaiKinnie

DazaiKinnie

Cringe Isekai Author
Apr 27, 2023
131
Am I the only one who prays at night to not wake up?
I've been praying for this since I was 13 years old. I'm 31 now. I was just wondering if anyone else did.
At least I hope I do.
 
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roguetrader

Experienced
Feb 17, 2021
245
The good news is that it'll work someday! But that day could be a few thousand days away 😂
 
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Hunter2005

Experienced
Apr 15, 2023
236
It doesn't work unfortunately 😔
 
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dwtsleepy123

Member
Aug 9, 2023
22
same here, but i always end up being disappointed
 
diviosd

diviosd

just a girl who's kinda sad
Aug 7, 2023
294
Every night but it's never worked lol
 
Unknown21

Unknown21

Enlightened
Apr 25, 2023
1,261
I don't have god to pray to, I'm an atheist. But i wish that with all my heart.
 
enough of this

enough of this

Arcanist
Jun 4, 2023
435
Am I the only one who prays at night to not wake up?
I've been praying for this since I was 13 years old. I'm 31 now. I was just wondering if anyone else did.
I've prayed for quite some time that I die in my sleep. I'm always disappointed when I wake up in the morning.
 
Wyldfyre4948

Wyldfyre4948

Waiting for my bus
Jul 12, 2023
378
Yes. It's become part of my nightly prayers. God didn't help my little buddy get better or anything else though. I know it's shitty to pray for knowing there's people out there that have have it far worse who's prayers also go unanswered.

It makes me feel like I'm treating god like a genie though and I feel horrible for it. Just don't understand how needy people's prayers go unanswered, but so many trash people can be so fortunate.
 
Eyler

Eyler

Cingulomania spark
Aug 11, 2023
49
Used to! a lot when I was around really small of age. After a long time I gave up the thought of praying, losing faith.

Not that I don't mind no more, it would be nice if I could do it again though, convincing myself that it will surely happened. Since I lost faith now I'm just a "lost puppy" in different terms.

Either way hope everything goes all good for you.
 

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