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iamveryoriginal

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Aug 27, 2025
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Like i might have had a few distressing experiences but i feel like most people would be able to brush it off and not end up here
 
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spiders.in.my.head

spiders.in.my.head

chronically stupid
Dec 21, 2025
13
yeah, i do. frankly, i don't have any right to be suicidal and am all things considered very privileged. but logic and reason have never stopped the shitty feelings. even if i know realistically that i should be grateful and alright, it doesn't change the fact that im not fine.
 
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iamveryoriginal

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Aug 27, 2025
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yeah, i do. frankly, i don't have any right to be suicidal and am all things considered very privileged. but logic and reason have never stopped the shitty feelings. even if i know realistically that i should be grateful and alright, it doesn't change the fact that im not fine.
yeah i def relate. Though again idk if I even know what its like to have shitty feelings, I have done enough to be considered a risk to myself and will probably keep going down this path. Its almost like thats just how ive conditioned my brain to work at this point
 
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Chairbed3

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Sep 14, 2025
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No I guess, it's the opposite for me. I believe people will just know my motive without even reading my note. There would be no speculation, just acceptance. Everytime I think about it, I feel ashamed of myself.
 
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MyLifeisHell

MyLifeisHell

I'm in hell
Jul 23, 2022
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Resilience and tolerance levels are going to vary immensely among a species numbering over eight billion.
 
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Lfsn_kivacs-rei

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Mar 1, 2025
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I don't think anyone will be surprised when I ctb, but there are many, millions of people who have it worse off than me. I rent an okay house, I'm technically employed but off work due to disability (temporarily, maybe forever), I have a few friends, I have food in the fridge if I could bring myself to eat it. I'm lucky on paper.

Here's what I know:
Over time, we get worn down. And if we don't get the chance (for whatever reason) to build back up (for me it's chronic illness and terrible mental health as a result, with sprinklings of addiction), every little thing is another reason to ctb. Everything is so fucking hard and there's no payoff. I'm able to walk a little each day - today I walked the dog, fell and grazed my knee. Nothing, right? I'm a grown ass woman and it's a knee graze. But It's put me in the foulest mood and I'm looking around for anchor points. There's just such a thin line between what we can take when we have been worn down by life. Some people seem to be able to bounce back. I'm just not one of them.
 
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orvreader

orvreader

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Dec 26, 2025
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Sometimes I wonder why the people around me aren't the one commiting. I have a net negative contribution to this earth and I don't get why the people around me aren't bothered enough to commit, and sometimes I feel selfish for being the one who gets to be peaceful.
 
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inkmage333

inkmage333

eagerly chasing the end
Feb 18, 2025
40
Yep, not helped at all by my mom saying stuff like "my life was harder and worse than yours but I'm still here, so you shouldn't kill yourself over your experiences because they're nothing compared to mine". Yeah thanks, that makes me feel SO much better and doesn't make me wanna ctb even more (sarcastic)
 
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ipmanwc0

ipmanwc0

I'll wait for you ❤️
Sep 15, 2023
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There's no such thing as needing justification to be suicidal. Human society is shit, that alone is reason enough
 
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alwayspissedoff

alwayspissedoff

iowa track #2
Aug 10, 2025
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yes, and sadly people will always let you know how good you have it compared to them or someone who suffers more.
my logical side says that no matter the means to how I'm feeling, I'm feeling like shit, I'm suicidal, etc., and that alone should be enough for it to be valid.
but then I think that if I was stronger mentally, maybe smarter, I would know how to put up with the things that happen to me, which makes me feel like it's my fault how I'm feeling for being weak.
I'm in an internal fight between the two, if that makes sense.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I imagine other people may feel that about me but, I don't care. My experience and feelings are what I'm stuck with.
 
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metfan647

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Jun 12, 2025
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There are quite likely many people out there with my negative way of thinking and world view who just get on with it and even go on to do well in life.

Suicide is just my own way out.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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Echoing what has been said a few times here. Suicide is a very personal choice and is ultimately up to the individual to determine if it is the correct course of action. No on needs to justify the choice to take their life, it is their choice alone to make.

On paper, my life looks like the ideal, yet there are circumstances which have made me incredibly miserable to the point where I no longer wish to live. I think this alone is reason enough and do not require outside input or permission.
 
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RosebyAnyName

RosebyAnyName

Staring at the ceiling for 6 hours
Nov 9, 2023
357
I don't think my life situation justifies me being suicidal. I never went through anything normally traumatic like living in a warzone or through a famine, I have a job and an ok financial situation, and I don't have a chronic or debilitating illness. Everything around me has been mostly fine and I think anyone in my position would have turned out fine, the problem is me.
 
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uglymisanthr0pe

uglymisanthr0pe

Im actually numb
Dec 24, 2025
16
I know exactly what you mean and how u feel. my life isn't so bad, and I find myself pondering that my life is the worst. nothing feels real and everything's so numb. anything good that happens feels like a temporary happiness even if it is big. im losing empathy for this fucked up world. i hate to stereotypical but the world is fucked up. part of my depression is due to what i hear happening around me. it just distresses me even more.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,112
Every human has a right to feel suicidal or any way they want to for any reason as long as they are not violating another being's rights. your thoughts inside your head won't affect anyone else

All actions should be ok as long as they are not violating another being's rights

If I want to kill these monstrous cells they call a human body I'm trapped in , I don't have to give a reason to anyone and it's no one else's business

If I drink Nembutal and die in my house alone I can't violate anything so why is this someone else's business what I do. Why am I restricted from buying Nembutal
 
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spiders.in.my.head

spiders.in.my.head

chronically stupid
Dec 21, 2025
13
Over time, we get worn down. And if we don't get the chance (for whatever reason) to build back up (for me it's chronic illness and terrible mental health as a result, with sprinklings of addiction), every little thing is another reason to ctb. Everything is so fucking hard and there's no payoff.
that makes a lot of sense, i hadn't thought about it like that before. like anything else, i guess humans can also get worn down.
hard relate on the "everything is hard, another reason to ctb, with no payoff".
 
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