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iamveryoriginal
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- Aug 27, 2025
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Like i might have had a few distressing experiences but i feel like most people would be able to brush it off and not end up here
yeah i def relate. Though again idk if I even know what its like to have shitty feelings, I have done enough to be considered a risk to myself and will probably keep going down this path. Its almost like thats just how ive conditioned my brain to work at this pointyeah, i do. frankly, i don't have any right to be suicidal and am all things considered very privileged. but logic and reason have never stopped the shitty feelings. even if i know realistically that i should be grateful and alright, it doesn't change the fact that im not fine.
that makes a lot of sense, i hadn't thought about it like that before. like anything else, i guess humans can also get worn down.Over time, we get worn down. And if we don't get the chance (for whatever reason) to build back up (for me it's chronic illness and terrible mental health as a result, with sprinklings of addiction), every little thing is another reason to ctb. Everything is so fucking hard and there's no payoff.