anyone else feel like they weren't meant for this world

[starshotplagues]

it's more that I feel like I am here as some sort of punishment. No matter how much I really try to change my life, to always act kind, to be a good person, to work harder....etc it really is as though some sort of 'fate' tries to get the better of me, that anything 'good' that happens turns out to be a cruel illusion and eventually things go back to being bad again

this is exactly how i feel

 

[Moonicide]

Absolutely. I really wasn't even meant to be born... My mom tried to abort me, but she was too far along to have an abortion. So I really wasn't meant to be alive at all. She told me she spent most of the pregnancy crying and being depressed which breaks my heart. I made my mother suffer.

 

[LMLN]

I'm much too sensitive and feel much too deeply to be in this world. I dont belong here.

 

[c824767]

yeah. i never really got involved with my life. i don't understand anyone or anything. the world is crazy, i'm crazy, or both. things just happen, more bad than good. i'm on autopilot 24/7. i don't think before i act. i can't, even when i'm not dissociating. i can't focus on anything anymore. i just chew over my shitty past and shittier future, fomenting my shame and guilt and regret, knowing there's no way to fix anything and slowly winding down. i don't even blame myself anymore -- i don't blame anyone or anything. everything is chaos. nothing -- and only nothing -- makes sense.

and then they gaslight you and tell you what's the problem, the world is great. I hate this fake optimism. For a long time the world has not been great. This is why people imagined that a great flood would come and destroy what destroys us.

 

[Numbtopain97]

I feel like I'm not capable enough for this world. Like I was designed to only be able to manage a world half as stressful. Like I'm so weak that even existing in this world destroys me. I'm not meant to be here.

 

[selfconnected]

Can relate to these alot haha, my whole reason for going is that I just don't feel like I have a purpose. There's nothing really wrong with me I guess, nothing really wrong with my life, I just can't do the normal people stuff that most people seem to be able to get on with just fine. I don't know what I could ever be good for, don't know what I could ever accomplish. I'm just not doing anyone a lot of good being around tbh

 

[c824767]

Can relate to these alot haha, my whole reason for going is that I just don't feel like I have a purpose. There's nothing really wrong with me I guess, nothing really wrong with my life, I just can't do the normal people stuff that most people seem to be able to get on with just fine. I don't know what I could ever be good for, don't know what I could ever accomplish. I'm just not doing anyone a lot of good being around tbh

you could try and help change the legislation in the world so we can all CTB easily.

 

[justanotherday]

I don't fit in this crazy , fucked up world either.

 

[sullengirl]

Philosophically, spiritually, socially, politically, emotionally, even physically — literally every way shape and form, I feel like I do not belong here. Makes me nauseous.

 

[noctiva]

I'm much too sensitive and feel much too deeply to be in this world. I dont belong here.

I hear you, it is the same for me. My friend always tells me I'm too nice, I'm too kind, I'm too understanding. I make excuses for everyone who treats me badly, and I love and care for them regardless.
I lost the love of my life and now I feel naked, exposed and even more vulnerable than before, I am not safe, I am not protected anymore. No one cares or loves me anymore, I feel all alone. I linger because I hope he comes back, but it's 11 weeks now.. Why would he come back now? If he loved me, he wouldn't have left in the first place, right? Right?

 

[Tinhoo]

I hear you, it is the same for me. My friend always tells me I'm too nice, I'm too kind, I'm too understanding. I make excuses for everyone who treats me badly, and I love and care for them regardless.
I lost the love of my life and now I feel naked, exposed and even more vulnerable than before, I am not safe, I am not protected anymore. No one cares or loves me anymore, I feel all alone. I linger because I hope he comes back, but it's 11 weeks now.. Why would he come back now? If he loved me, he wouldn't have left in the first place, right? Right?

I feel the same, I am that kind of person that everybody likes but alone I realize that I am not in the right place in the world... when I am sad usually ppl go away from me :((
I am tired to try to love... I am tired that no one cares about me too... I feel alone even with my friends arround me...this world is not for me... for sure !!

 

[JustVisiting]

I was never meant for this earth. Born on the wrong planet.

 

[PaYo]

I think that i was the kid of happines, i was designed for success. I had high self esteem and deep thinking. I was the center of my imagination. I loved my place in the world. Until i have lost it.

 

[JustVisiting]

I think that i was the kid of happines, i was designed for success. I had high self esteem and deep thinking. I was the center of my imagination. I loved my place in the world. Until i have lost it.

May I ask how you believe you lost your place in the world?

 

[PaYo]

i was kick out, i was threaten badly, my friends threat me like a shit, then the diffrent friends kick out me from theyre "pack" and know im free, without friends, and energy to have real impact to the world, or connection to it.

Im lost.

 

[Livinginhell]

I truly believe I was put on the wrong planet, I certainly don't belong on this one.

 

[TAW122]

I did feel that after reality has hit me. When I was a child, I did have dreams, but they are rather unrealistic and not necessarily attainable because not everyone can be that good to get it. One of my dreams was to become a really success concert pianist performing all over the world and making bank. However, after growing up and becoming an adult, it just isn't realistic because most people don't end up becoming that successful and to get up there, not only requires the right talent, the right connections, and more.

Furthermore, I have Aspergers which is big curse in just everyday life. Day to day interactions with people are always challenging for the most part and suck. I wish I didn't have this disorder and was rather NT just so I can navigate day to day life without as much hassle and have better relationships with people.

 

[Life sucks]

I'm not meant for this world. I'll expose life logically and scientifically.
I'll expose how humans and their systems are absurd. People just want to live and ignore their minds just to continue the stupid species program, I'm not this type. I keep asking why people should suffer for shitty nonsense while the absurd ones just continue living like nothing happens.
Also I'm not the type that forgets some shit or try to throw others under the bus which is basically how many others live.
So many things, I'm just someone who is never meant to be, if humans are programmed animals, I'm a biological glitch that exposes the shitty programming.

 

[JustVisiting]

I truly believe I was put on the wrong planet, I certainly don't belong on this one.

That's exactly me and what I wrote yesterday.

 

[TheLastGoodbye]

it's more that I feel like I am here as some sort of punishment. No matter how much I really try to change my life, to always act kind, to be a good person, to work harder....etc it really is as though some sort of 'fate' tries to get the better of me, that anything 'good' that happens turns out to be a cruel illusion and eventually things go back to being bad again

I feel the exact same way.

Yea def. I've always felt too delicate and sensitive, easily taking on emotions of others and always feeling deep empathy for others. Frequently percevied their bad moods as if it was my fault, esp as a child, constantly questioning myself, and couldn't feel comfortable until I made it right somehow. Had a bend-over-backwards complex for people even if they were assholes. Easily taken advantage of. Being around people in general drains my energy, and I always felt I would need to be alone to recharge. I'm too naive and too innocent in some ways as well. Always pretty cowardly, but good about hiding it. LOTS OF ANXIETY.

Sounds a lot like me

 

[JustVisiting]

I'm not meant for this world. I'll expose life logically and scientifically.
I'll expose how humans and their systems are absurd. People just want to live and ignore their minds just to continue the stupid species program, I'm not this type. I keep asking why people should suffer for shitty nonsense while the absurd ones just continue living like nothing happens.
Also I'm not the type that forgets some shit or try to throw others under the bus which is basically how many others live.
So many things, I'm just someone who is never meant to be, if humans are programmed animals, I'm a biological glitch that exposes the shitty programming.

Completely relate.

 

[JustVisiting]

I'm much too sensitive and feel much too deeply to be in this world. I dont belong here.

Right there with you. I'm certain you are also an empath.