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unloveable27

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Jan 29, 2026
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Life is meaningless and cold and tedious and having someone by your side is the only thing that makes it all worth it. Anyone else feel this way? Like if they had a significant other they wouldn't want to die at all?
 
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dirkw83

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Mar 4, 2026
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Nah. I used to think that way but life has plenty to offer even if you don't have a girlfriend. Good sleep, nice food, nice things to see. The world really is a beautiful place, even if you're alone, and there's always a chance you'll meet someone if you just focus on doing things you wanna do. Not sure how old you are but chances are you're in your twenties. When you're in your thirties you really start to realize this. I do agree that life is meaningless but you can make existence painless and even enjoyable even if you're alone. Learn mindfulness, it's a great tool.
 
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Cyc

It's my fight and I choose to surrender.
Jan 22, 2026
229
As someone who's been in relationships before, no. If anything I feel worse for wanting to die
 
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Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
829
Having no girlfriend is one the MANY reasons why i will ctb. Chronic pain and poor health is the No.1 reason why i will ctb.
 
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DecayAndAsh

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Nov 20, 2025
18
It's not my only reason but it's definitely a contributing factor. Having a gf wouldn't fix everything but it could've at least made me feel better.
 
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darksouls

Visionary
May 10, 2025
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my ex-boyfriends treated me like trash,
I gave up hope of having a loving partner a long time ago,
I am mentally and emotionally too broken for a romantic relationship,
that is why I stay alone until I die
 
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Apathy79

Elementalist
Oct 13, 2019
885
Personally my life improved considerably since breaking up with my previous girlfriend. Night and day difference. I would say with near categoric certainty now that being single is preferable to having a bad girlfriend, for me anyway. I often wonder with questions like this if it is coming from a place of never having had a girlfriend and not knowing the downsides of it. Grass is always greener on the other side type thing. Or whether some people just have a harder time being alone and literally anyone is preferable to that?
 
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ih34rty0u

ih34rty0u

“die young and save yourself”
Apr 16, 2024
80
not solely but i often feel like the fact that i've never been asked out/in a relationship makes all the other things in life meaningless and my achievements are worthless. im already 21 and it's just so embarrassing. it extremely feeds into my suicidal ideation.

two years ago i was on the verge of death due to anorexia because i took weight loss way too far. i tried to become lovable but it turns out i cannot do anything, it's never enough. im doomed.
 
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unloveable27

Member
Jan 29, 2026
21
Nah. I used to think that way but life has plenty to offer even if you don't have a girlfriend. Good sleep, nice food, nice things to see. The world really is a beautiful place, even if you're alone, and there's always a chance you'll meet someone if you just focus on doing things you wanna do. Not sure how old you are but chances are you're in your twenties. When you're in your thirties you really start to realize this. I do agree that life is meaningless but you can make existence painless and even enjoyable even if you're alone. Learn mindfulness, it's a great tool.
I don't sleep well or have an appetite because I'm depressed over being alone. I'm short and ugly and cant compete on the apps and every hobby group ive been to is other men. I'm CTB right before turning 28 in the summer. Dating in your thirties sounds even worse than in 20s. I'm not raising someone else's kid. I personally need someone else loving me to feel good but I think it's something required to really feel good for most people. Your outlook is probably healthier for survival though but I've already lost hope.
I used to have passion and create art but not nearly as much recently. I have to take drugs to want to draw or play music
Having no girlfriend is one the MANY reasons why i will ctb. Chronic pain and poor health is the No.1 reason why i will ctb.
I'm sorry you have the same experiences. Especially chronic pain, i had that for a couple years due to a botched surgery and it was hell.
Personally my life improved considerably since breaking up with my previous girlfriend. Night and day difference. I would say with near categoric certainty now that being single is preferable to having a bad girlfriend, for me anyway. I often wonder with questions like this if it is coming from a place of never having had a girlfriend and not knowing the downsides of it. Grass is always greener on the other side type thing. Or whether some people just have a harder time being alone and literally anyone is preferable to that?
I've already been in an online relationship where we met up in person once, but she fell in love with me in DMs before she saw my ugly face and short stature. It was a fluke of extraordinary luck that only happens once in a lifetime and is the only way I could have someone. My only relationship was dysfunctional in a lot of ways but was vastly preferable to being alone even at its worst. It would take extreme circumstances like cheating or abuse for me to break up with a partner now, knowing how hard it is for me to get one. I've never been hit on once in my life at almost 28.

If dating apps didn't exist everything would be easier because I wouldn't have to pay to be seen and compete with all the most attractive men in the city, for women talking to 10 people at once. I'm not blaming women, why wouldn't they pick the best of the best, but I'd rather the apps were banned because then me and a lot of other guys might have something resembling an actual chance
 
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cvury

Member
May 20, 2025
44
my ex-boyfriends treated me like trash,
I gave up hope of having a loving partner a long time ago,
I am mentally and emotionally too broken for a romantic relationship,
that is why I stay alone until I die
why did u choose to date them then
 

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