Discussion Anyone else completely let go of their appearance/self-care?

[AtomicNewt]

In my twenties I was reasonably pretty and even when low always would eat very well, it actually helped give me focus, and had plenty of exercise. As I've always had low self-esteem I would always make sure I thought my clothes looked good together and hair make-up paid attention to, so never minded looking on the mirror. One thing I did think was I looked alright if I didn't always even feel it.

Wow how that's changed. I'm out and about now not having brushed my hair (my hair is elbow length) or teeth for three or four days (I lose track) with quite a ridiculous combination of clothing on, as just getting dressed was hard enough. I haven't been able to stand looking in the mirror for nearly two years. The untreated ptsd and depression/anxiety has led to years of heavy drinking and my face is now permanently puffy and covered in red spider viens. I've almost lost my appetite and take no pleasure in food anymore, surviving off sweets and crisps. I barely exercise and sleep on the sofa, often not changing clothes for days. I can't stand being places where I might meet people I know, I look so haggard and revolting. I hate the mirror and I really hate people looking at me. I've turned into this disgusting skanky husk.

Anyone else too low to manage their health and appearance?

 

[Endqualia]

Yeah I brush my teeth like two times a month, they are fucked now cause of it. Shower weekly. Can't care about clothing or footwear. I don't remember the last time I bought shoes, even when I had the money I just didn't care. Eating very little too.

I was never goodlooking but when I see photos of five years ago I look much better compared to now. I developed this constant dark puffiness under my eyes and just look like shit all the time. There are things I know I could do for my health and looks but don't see the point in treating a scrach wound when you suffer from cancer.

 

[WinterIsComing]

I used to care but not in a fun way as women usually put it. It was like part of the routine....
Now i do it so little....

 

[favourite]

I was never pretty, but in the last few years I put on 80 pounds and shaved my head, so I look like utter shit. The good thing is, when you get down to the solid 1/10 in terms of looks, you just dont have to care anymore.

 

[SinisterKid]

Yeah, I hear ya. I got dressed today for the first time since last Friday. Had to pick meds up. But shave? nah. Appearance? who gives a shit. I wear very dark glasses, wear a hat and look down at the ground all the time whilst trying to remain upright. Stare? you bet they fckin do. I am beautiful on the inside though

 

[Robbyna]

I used to be very pretty. I got compliments everyday, but now I look terrible. I don't take any of the thought or care in my appearance that I used to. I shaved my head too and gained about 40lbs People I knew before look at me with pity.

 

[Karangel25]

Same. I dint care anymore I don't even want to be in this body.

 

[Lush_nova]

I spent a year losing nearly 3 stone, in 6 weeks I've put back on 1.5stone, I can't be fucked. I used to shave my legs, do my eye brows , have my nails done, dress OK. Now? Don't see the point. I'm not out to impress anyone, I barely leave the house so live in PJs.

 

[AtomicNewt]

I was never pretty, but in the last few years I put on 80 pounds and shaved my head, so I look like utter shit. The good thing is, when you get down to the solid 1/10 in terms of looks, you just dont have to care anymore.

Well I'm pretty much there, but it's other people that are the problem, another reason to avoid them further is I keep getting (unsolicited) comments on my appearance. I mean, apart from pissing me off aren't any of those people thinking "somethings wrong" rather than "wow, you've really let yourself go, loser"?

I used to be very pretty. I got compliments everyday, but now I look terrible. I don't take any of the thought or care in my appearance that I used to. I shaved my head too and gained about 40lbs People I knew before look at me with pity.

I'm seeing the appeal in this actually, I'm beyond caring or expecting anything to change, as my hair is so long and regularly dreads now perhaps just hacking it all of would be good. Can just imagine the horror of other people to, which is strangely making me giggle. Its not like they give a fuck about what's going on inside!

 

[SinisterKid]

Some days I love it when people stare at me because of my appearance and other days I despise each and every one of them for it. I make all kinds of comments from the sarcastic to the threatening and everything inbetween.

But one person sees though it all and to her I am still the best grandad in the world. That sometimes puts it all in perspective if I let it.

 

[Severen]

No because I find that taking care of my appearance actually helps me feel better. It definitely has a psychological affect on humans. Just like, forcing yourself to smile can even make you feel better. But of course, I've been through moments, I've been so depressed, I couldn't do anything but let my appearance go. That is why I recommend anti depressants.

 

[Ashpac]

I shower often.
Shave my face and head often and eat the usual few meals a day.
Ive had to stop drink and drugs because my depression is unbearable so ive turned to food more because of it.
Brush my teeth every morning but at times ive seen myself brush my teeth 3 times a week if that.
However the way I dress looks like dog shit, i might care about hygiene but i always wear the shittest of clothes lol.

 

[「 」]

very recently (talking past 2 or 3 months) i had a sharp downturn on hygiene. i dont brush my teeth if ever, stopped shaving and maintaining facial hair, skip showers, take weeks to trim nails, keep underwear until it really smells. i just dont have the motivation anymore, or rather, the motivation to pretend im fine

it doesnt help that i put on 30 pounds from psych meds and its making me feel dysphoric. i was a bit too on the thin side, but it was also how i'd seen myself for over a decade so its a bit of a shock to experience.

 

[not_a_robot]

yes. I go through phases of being better and worse.
My apartment had no washer/dryer,but I bought a puny one so I don't have to go out of my apartment to do laundry, that helps. I really hate leaving my apartment.

 

[Severen]

I shower often.
Shave my face and head often and eat the usual few meals a day.
Ive had to stop drink and drugs because my depression is unbearable so ive turned to food more because of it.
Brush my teeth every morning but at times ive seen myself brush my teeth 3 times a week if that.
However the way I dress looks like dog shit, i might care about hygiene but i always wear the shittest of clothes lol.

I don't see the point in dressing nice anyway if you aren't going to a job interview. I'm a loner. I don't want anyone in my life.

 

[not_a_robot]

I shower often.
Shave my face and head often and eat the usual few meals a day.
Ive had to stop drink and drugs because my depression is unbearable so ive turned to food more because of it.
Brush my teeth every morning but at times ive seen myself brush my teeth 3 times a week if that.
However the way I dress looks like dog shit, i might care about hygiene but i always wear the shittest of clothes lol.

I kind of enjoy the shitty clothes thing lol. It started in my early twenties and had great jobs and was spending lots of money on beautiful mens silk pajamas. I would run errands and go out in my beautiful pjs, unmindful of disapproving stares, like "I can wear these, I have a great job and these cost as much as your clothes."

Eventually my money and great lifestyle went to shit, now I wear the shittiest of clothes because "everything is pajamas, leave me alone, fuck off."
I just hate how much importance society places on clothes, it is literally the only thing anyone cares about, so I enjoy offending people by wearing ugly ones. Fuck people and what they think of my ugly clothes, they are all so superficial and stupid. I am not a fucking ornament for them to enjoy looking at.

 

[Severen]

I kind of enjoy the shitty clothes thing lol. It started in my early twenties and had great jobs and was spending lots of money on beautiful mens silk pajamas. I would run errands and go out in my beautiful pjs, unmindful of disapproving stares, like "I can wear these, I have a great job and these cost as much as your clothes."

Eventually my money and great lifestyle went to shit, now I wear the shittiest of clothes because "everything is pajamas, leave me alone, fuck off."
I just hate how much importance society places on clothes, it is *literally" the only thing anyone cares about, so I enjoy offending people by wearing ugly ones. Fuck people and what they think of my ugly clothes, they are all so superficial and stupid. I am not a fucking ornament for them to enjoy looking at.

Heheh, yeah. Wearing shitty clothes is like, telling people to fuck off around you. It's very effective.

 

[AtomicNewt]

No because I find that taking care of my appearance actually helps me feel better. It definitely has a psychological affect on humans. Just like, forcing yourself to smile can even make you feel better. But of course, I've been through moments, I've been so depressed, I couldn't do anything but let my appearance go. That is why I recommend anti depressants.

Oh for sure, if you can manage to care for your appearance you should totally go for it, certainly a good idea! My post might have come across a bit muddled but previously however terrible I felt I always tried to look good (at least to me) and exercise and eat well etc... Think it's a sign of how far I've declined that I cannot bring myself to pay attention to any of the things that I used to cling onto to give myself some self-respect. Have a feeling this is a sign of absolutely irreversible decline.

 

[not_a_robot]

I used to be very pretty. I got compliments everyday, but now I look terrible. I don't take any of the thought or care in my appearance that I used to. I shaved my head too and gained about 40lbs People I knew before look at me with pity.

Same. I want to shave my head so bad because it constantly dreads up. I settled for just buzzing the whole back of my head but leaving it long in the front, in case I need my "human lady disguise" for anything.

 

[Imgonnahangmyself]

Yes

 

[Ashpac]

I don't see the point in dressing nice anyway if you aren't going to a job interview. I'm a loner. I don't want anyone in my life.

I dont want anyone in my life either. My family feel sorry for me thinking I have no friends.
I choose to not hang around my friends.
Im used to my own company, I can read and catch up on my youtube channels that I watch.
I love my company very much lol.
Its other peoples company that bores me plus people just tell lies too much for my liking.

 

[Robbyna]

Same. I want to shave my head so bad because it constantly dreads up. I settled for just buzzing the whole back of my head but leaving it long in the front, in case I need my "human lady disguise" for anything.

Haha! I feel like I'm wearing a disguise all the time. No one knows how bad I really feel and how much I still want to die.

 

[not_a_robot]

I dont want anyone in my life either. My family feel sorry for me thinking I have no friends.
I choose to not hang around my friends.
Im used to my own company, I can read and catch up on my youtube channels that I watch.
I love my company very much lol.
Its other peoples company that bores me plus people just tell lies too much for my liking.

lol.
The conversation I have with myself before I go out:
"Oh I look terrible. I should clean myself up before I go out."

"---wait, why?"

"ummm...so people will enjoy looking at me?"

"lol yeah good one. try again."

"uh...so people will talk to me?"

"HA HA HA HA HA you hate when people talk to you! you're going out like this , this is fine. Put the hairbrush down, you already look perfect."

 

[favourite]

Well I'm pretty much there, but it's other people that are the problem, another reason to avoid them further is I keep getting (unsolicited) comments on my appearance. I mean, apart from pissing me off aren't any of those people thinking "somethings wrong" rather than "wow, you've really let yourself go, loser"?

I'm seeing the appeal in this actually, I'm beyond caring or expecting anything to change, as my hair is so long and regularly dreads now perhaps just hacking it all of would be good. Can just imagine the horror of other people to, which is strangely making me giggle. Its not like they give a fuck about what's going on inside!

Two years ago I moved to a new city to start a new life (lol), so I dont give a flying fuck about bunch of strangers here. Maybe I would care a bit if I still lived in my college city among my old peers, but here Ive become laughing stock from the moment I set my foot on my new job and I just got more and more indifferent to these hostile pricks. Nothing holds me here anyway.

I just maintain my hygiene and always shower and wear clean clothes (although they look like from salvation army basket) because I have to be around people everyday, but Im so fucking ugly that it doesnt help.

 

[Scribble Fan]

I only ever try to look normal so people will leave me alone. I want nothing to do with them. For me, blending in is the best way of opting out and being invisible.

At least, that's the idea. These days I forget to shower, can't be bothered to shave, eat trash, have holes in my clothes, barely brush, have the Amazon rainforest for a hairstyle, look pale as a vampire, and am now a complete skeleton.

God, haha, I've lost all motivation what-so-ever. Whoops.

 

[Morphinekiss]

My closet is full of beautiful clothes I used to wear when I was teaching I was the stylish, fun, cute teacher. Always had my hair and makeup done.

Since I quit working I quit caring. I haven't worn makeup in almost a year, stay in pajamas all day, my hair badly needs a cut. The worst is the weight I've let myself put on, as it's now triggered my ED and I'm stuck in a binge/restrict cycle. Even if I wanted to dress nicely, nothing fits anymore.

 

[favourite]

My closet is full of beautiful clothes I used to wear when I was teaching I was the stylish, fun, cute teacher. Always had my hair and makeup done.

Since I quit working I quit caring. I haven't worn makeup in almost a year, stay in pajamas all day, my hair badly needs a cut. The worst is the weight I've let myself put on, as it's now triggered my ED and I'm stuck in a binge/restrict cycle. Even if I wanted to dress nicely, nothing fits anymore.

I have wardrobe full of barely used pretty shirts from my prettier days. Cant bring myself to throw them away.

 

[dousavetheworld]

I am still okay though I am not an outgoing person. But taking care of myself is getting much harder now. I always feel fatigue and tired. I don't shower as much as before (because I live in a hot area, i used to shower everyday). I have not bought any shoes for about 2 years but I bought one last week because I just got a new job and I have to meet new people and my previous one is old and broken. I am still suicidal and wish that I could die in a month. it is just like I am a two-face person now.

 

[Severen]

I dont want anyone in my life either. My family feel sorry for me thinking I have no friends.
I choose to not hang around my friends.
Im used to my own company, I can read and catch up on my youtube channels that I watch.
I love my company very much lol.
Its other peoples company that bores me plus people just tell lies too much for my liking.

I used to have lots of friends, girlfriends etc... It's overrated. We live in a very savage world, today. Every person in your social circle is a potential enemy, nowadays. Perhaps in a different period of time, it would have been nice. But today, I'd rather not surround myself with potential enemies unless I had total control over them, something not really possible with all the silly laws in place today.

 

[littlelady774]

I never wear makeup and usually just put my hair in a messy bun everyday. I have trichotillomania so I don't have a lot of hair, and I try to hide the bald spot by pulling it back.. kinda like a combover.