Discussion Anyone else been feeling alone their entire life?

[tomz323]

I mean I've had people I talk to, but never been able to connect with family or anyone to the point that I would say they're my friend.

 

[Kyrok]

Mostly, yes.

I have friends & am married, but I've put myself into a cell of such misery that no one is able to stand it when I open the door. So long as it stays shut, i can be tolerated. But must not open.

 

[marcusuk63]

Yes i have never been able to enjoy social situations , family gatherings or friends popping round and staying over an hour . if i a]m in a situation where there are lots of people all talking its like nails on a blackboard and i just want to get out . I could definitely live my life in the wilderness with no human contact ,as long as i had all the comforts of home and groceries delivered ,

 

[Honigwaffel]

It got harder as I got older. I can remember having a few close friends in school. Like genuine good friends that you can tell anything.
That changed when I got my first job and needed to move to a new city. Since then I am struggling to find genuine people. It makes me sick how fucking cold hearted and egoistic humans can be. They are talking to me not because they care about me as a person, they just do because they want to give themselves an advantage and suck the energy out of me. It's those who ask you for a favor ten times and when you need their help only once, they find some stupid reason to not help.

That was the point for me when I stopped caring about those people. Or people in general. I guess in order to protect myself.

Now I just want to get out of our fucked up society with a partner to live in a very remote place. That would be my dream: Find a partner and get the F*** out

 

[Livinginhell]

Yes, all my life I have felt alone. I've never had any real friends, haven't had boyfriends, never felt love. I so desperately want someone to love and care for me.

 

[tomz323]

Yes, all my life I have felt alone. I've never had any real friends, haven't had boyfriends, never felt love. I so desperately want someone to love and care for me.

Yeah, I want someone to desperately love me too, I don't want to be there just to entertain others.

Yes i have never been able to enjoy social situations , family gatherings or friends popping round and staying over an hour . if i a]m in a situation where there are lots of people all talking its like nails on a blackboard and i just want to get out . I could definitely live my life in the wilderness with no human contact ,as long as i had all the comforts of home and groceries delivered ,

That's the way humans are suppose to live, out in the wilderness in real community's with real people. Not this fake nice narcissistic social media obsessed society.

 

[Honigwaffel]

That's the way humans are suppose to live, out in the wilderness in real community's with real people. Not this fake nice narcissistic social media obsessed society.

^this. Couldn't have said it better

 

[turbofly3ddeath]

Yeah. I've felt alone most of my life bar once incident and that was when I was my ex in the good parts. Now especially I feel more alone then ever. The friends I think I have a connection with, I lost. I can't seem to keep anything going long term. I hate being the person I am. And it's why I want to CTB.

 

[suffering]

Loneliness is my middle name, but unlike many others, I sort of enjoy it. I can't say I love it, but the alternative (dealing with people) is just too disgusting. I'm choosing the lesser of two evils.

 

[tomz323]

^this. Couldn't have said it better

Anyway to achieve this in 2019?

 

[Throwaway563078]

Yes

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

Definitely feel alone people judge and dont understand... Ive never made friend easeily and now have none i had my mother til she told people what i had told her in confidence and my partner hurts me too much he seems to not care he wants this and that and i want to think be lft alone to try help myself but i cant.....the only reason i here is for my children and it hurts when u have kids u love but know u need to go....

 

[Xaphous]

No social life at all, never dated or had a girlfriend. No acquaintances, family all have their own life so can't talk with them. I have no idea how to go out and meet people as potential friends, everyone already has their friendbase. Isolation has exhausted my mind even if I knew how, I'd have nothing of their interests to talk about probably.

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

I feel the same i need someone who is like me who wants to talk about anything not even to talk just t be there i need to be thought and see a different outlook and oh my how i have tried with no hope. No one can be trusted and anyone i did let in abused me...like just my partner and mother he with me because he thinks im pretty and he is alone he thinks he is but he not lots people talk to where as i am here and no one looks and if they do it a evil look it humiliation i better off alone but so desperately wish i fitted in somewhere

 

[Deadgirl]

I have a very similar issue. I am around people yet i feal so lonely. I think it's because i don't truly bond with others.

 

[Marz]

I never felt like I belonged in my family. I was neglected a lot. At school I had no friends nor talked to anyone. I have never had a solid group of friends nor felt like I even had a family either? I have always felt like I don't belong anywhere and that I bother people with my existence. But ironically loneliness is the thing I cling to for comfort because it's the thing I know the most.

 

[PeacePlease]

I have always felt a stranger even for my own family, I have a girlfriend who was the only one I felt I ever connected with, but now things are bad and she cheated on me and I don't know what is going to happen. Besides that I never had anyone else

 

[GeorgeJL]

No I don't have that problem.

 

[aspx]

Loneliness is my middle name, but unlike many others, I sort of enjoy it. I can't say I love it, but the alternative (dealing with people) is just too disgusting. I'm choosing the lesser of two evils.

This. I've always been the isolated guy in the corner, but it sounds better than having an active social life and the obligation to attend to social events.

 

[brighter]

Yes, but I really like it for some weird reason. I'm so used to doing everything on my own and handling my own business I don't even bother to hit people up anymore. Whatever it is, I can do it myself.

But I just want to say to all of the lonely people here, I'm sorry that you didn't get love.
It hurts like a bitch, then makes you numb, which is somehow even worse. I know what it's like to watch other people have amazing friendships and having to accept that you won't have that.
Maybe this forum will alleviate your pain.

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

I can't do anything for myself ur lucky u can

 

[brighter]

I can't do anything for myself ur lucky u can

It comes from having to do everything by yourself from childhood. When you never have anything to lean on in the first place, not having friends that are involved in your life isn't strange to you. It becomes second nature.

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

It comes from having to do everything by yourself from childhood. When you never have anything to lean on in the first place, not having friends that are involved in your life isn't strange to you. It becomes second nature.

I did a lot on my own always seemed easier for others t do things for me less stressful but u cant trust them motherfuckers. I have t learn t do things on my own........

 

[brighter]

u cant trust them motherfuckers.

Couldn't have put it better myself.

 

[Honigwaffel]

Anyway to achieve this in 2019?

If I had a simple answer to that I would be more than happy to share it.

I think we need to bring back intimacy which we all need. Cut the bull****, and get real relationships. I mean you can have 2000 Facebook friends and still be very lonely. It's about quality of a relationship not quantity.

If you find a few like-minded people and quit this society together it might work. You won't get super rich or successful by the standards of today's society. But who cares, you just need to be happy.

That way you will experience what life is really about. However I think (And I include myself) that we are not able make a 180 turn with the skillset we have. I couldn't survive two days on my own in a remote location. Heck, I can't even make a fire without a lighter...

 

[seekingoblivion]

Yeah. Even on this forum I feel alone.

 

[RRH]

I have many friends from different groups, but still feel alone.

I feel like I can't connect with anybody on a deeper level and feel my friends are closer with each other than I am with them.

One of the many reasons I want to ctb.

 

[dyingtodie]

I feel alone because I feel like the depth of connection that I seek to share with others is not something most people are capable of. And I have not found the few who are who are interested in relating with me. Except my cat. But she no speak english.

 

[TheFinalCountdown]

Yes, I've struggled to make connections with people all my life and been unable to keep the people I care about close. I have family and friends of course but I don't think they'd really miss me if I were gone

 

[AlePizarnik]

I mean I've had people I talk to, but never been able to connect with family or anyone to the point that I would say they're my friend.

I have the same issue