Anyone else bedridden due to depression?

[RedHarlequin]

I spend most of my days in bed. With a lot of effort I manage to take a shower every other day and brush my teeth, but that is basically it. The worst part is the loss of any interests. I used to watch movies or read, now nothing seems appealing, I just spend most of the time staring outside the window. Anyone else in a similar position?

 

[WornOutLife]

I was exactly in your shoes last year.
Taking a shower or cleaning were my biggest goals and I seldom did it.
I think the key here is to accept there's a problem. I mean, it's not normal for human beings to be on a bed 24/7 if they don't have any terminal illness.

So, what I did was start from baby steps to giant strides.
I took showers, I brushed my teeth, etc and then I started working again, date girls, study and so on.

As for the lack of motivation and interest in stuff, well, that's the hardest part. You gotta look for something. There are plenty of options out there.
In my case, learning languages and walking/running has undoubtedly "saved me"

Wish you the best and hope you can get some motivation to do something soon.

Hugs

 

[RedHarlequin]

I was exactly in your shoes last year.
Taking a shower or cleaning were my biggest goals and I seldom did it.
I think the key here is to accept there's a problem. I mean, it's not normal for human beings to be on a bed 24/7 if they don't have any terminal illness.

So, what I did was start from baby steps to giant strides.
I took showers, I brushed my teeth, etc and then I started working again, date girls, study and so on.

As for the lack of motivation and interest in stuff, well, that's the hardest part. You gotta look for something. There are plenty of options out there.
In my case, learning languages and walking/running has undoubtedly "saved me"

Wish you the best and hope you can get some motivation to do something soon.

Hugs

Your post gives me hope!

 

[lobster salad]

I stay in bed most of the day, but I do get up when my parents force me to(for meals or to go out) or when I want to use the desktop to listen to music to drown out some thoughts. But I do shower because I live in a hot country and I can't stand the smell of my sweat. Forget the teeth. I used to go out in the evenings for fresh air+escape social situations but kinda winging it now, because I'm more tired these days, so the problem is worse now

 

[LittleJem]

I keep recommending it, but the reason I can get out of bed today is Modafinil. Unfortunately, it seems to build tolerance so day 1 of taking it - amazing, day 2 okay and today I am out of bed but still miserable. So I don't recommend taking it every day, but I do really recommend it.

 

[RedHarlequin]

I keep recommending it, but the reason I can get out of bed today is Modafinil. Unfortunately, it seems to build tolerance so day 1 of taking it - amazing, day 2 okay and today I am out of bed but still miserable. So I don't recommend taking it every day, but I do really recommend it.

Thanks! I will try it.

 

[ZardozOmega]

sounds a bit like me :/

 

[notreallynow]

I spend most of my days in bed. With a lot of effort I manage to take a shower every other day and brush my teeth, but that is basically it. The worst part is the loss of any interests. I used to watch movies or read, now nothing seems appealing, I just spend most of the time staring outside the window. Anyone else in a similar position?

Does music help? Music + light yoga you can do in bed.
I was doing a little yoga before, and it did increase my energy. Only, I was dumb and badly twisted my ankle. It's ok now, it's been a week but hard to get back to.. I do recommend it though.
If anyone has a .ac email (it doesn't even have to be current!) you can get 'down dog' app free trial for until 1st of July, I really like that one. The sequences are generated but the voices are real humans and they have good music. And if you are unemployed or disabled you can send an email describing your circumstances for free access.
And there are videos on youtube which are supposed to be quite good, but I never use them yet. They might be a bit better in that they're a bit more personal, routine designed and narrated entirely by a trainer. Prefer the app one mostly because you can set to eg. 5 minutes; and for me, it's easier to start moving if I think, oh ok, I'll do this for 5 minutes only, 5 minutes is nothing. And then afterwards I'll feel a bit better and do another one, and usually, I end up moving for at least half an hour..

 

[wannafly]

I spend most of my days in bed. With a lot of effort I manage to take a shower every other day and brush my teeth, but that is basically it. The worst part is the loss of any interests. I used to watch movies or read, now nothing seems appealing, I just spend most of the time staring outside the window. Anyone else in a similar position?

Really similar position actually, I've been like this for a few months now. Nothing I haven't experienced before, but I get you, it's annoying and pretty much worse than a lot of other things to deal with. I feel as though I watch the decline in mood again, and there's nothing to stop it. Interesting that we get to communicate about this - it's really easy to feel alone.

I was exactly in your shoes last year.
Taking a shower or cleaning were my biggest goals and I seldom did it.
I think the key here is to accept there's a problem. I mean, it's not normal for human beings to be on a bed 24/7 if they don't have any terminal illness.

So, what I did was start from baby steps to giant strides.
I took showers, I brushed my teeth, etc and then I started working again, date girls, study and so on.

As for the lack of motivation and interest in stuff, well, that's the hardest part. You gotta look for something. There are plenty of options out there.
In my case, learning languages and walking/running has undoubtedly "saved me"

Wish you the best and hope you can get some motivation to do something soon.

Hugs

Thanks for posting this - tempting to use as inspiration to get back on top of things. Might be worth posting this in the recovery sections, if appropriate.

 

[NegativeSymptoms]

Yep, bedridden for the last ~6 years due to negative symptoms of schizophrenia and depression. I can't even focus on movies or books because my attention span and memory is non existent. Not that I'm interested in those things anyway, but it would be a good way of escapism. On the bright side, I started playing PC games again few days ago.

 

[booray]

The lack of interest and pleasure in doing things is called anhedonia. I've given in to it because II've lost all hope for a brighter future. If you haven't lost hope yet, then maybe you can overcome anhedonia. All I know is that it takes real effort and I just don't have it in me anymore. I'm done, but that's just me. I'm 59, I'm old, and I feel like my life is over.

 

[Throwawaysoul]

I spend most of my days in bed. With a lot of effort I manage to take a shower every other day and brush my teeth, but that is basically it. The worst part is the loss of any interests. I used to watch movies or read, now nothing seems appealing, I just spend most of the time staring outside the window. Anyone else in a similar position?

Are you me? I'm the same way. I get up, eat, shower, brush and back to the couch or bed. I ruined two couches with permanent ass groves, it's disgusting and I hate myself.

 

[jakaka]

Are you me? I'm the same way. I get up, eat, shower, brush and back to the couch or bed. I ruined two couches with permanent ass groves, it's disgusting and I hate myself.

well at least you guys shower lol. I just stay in bed. Eat. Brush at night. Don't even bother with the shower anymore...it's crazy how bad depression can get to the point of neglecting personal hygiene

 

[Throwawaysoul]

Brush at night

Good on you. Brushing is important. Fixing dental stuff is expensive.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I have "high functioning" depression nowadays, I'm a hermit NEET so not really high functioning haha. This means that I can do chores, buy means of death and commit suicide without any problems in the energy department, heh.

 

[itsallover]

I don't lay in the bed all day, but am pretty much homebound because of disability. I have chronic pain along with other debilitating symptoms. I don't know where else to turn for help as I have been through pretty much all the major hospitals and clinics in my city and feel completely lost.

 

[popcorn]

i used to be immaculacy dressed and turned out, now i spend every single day in bed watching videos on youtube. i have zero energy to do anything

 

[oneanonymous]

I pretty much stay in bed these days. I still brush my teeth twice a day, though I don't shower often. I have to take the dog outside every few hours, so that forces me up and into the backyard where at least there is a huge tree, plants and koi pond with fish and frogs. I think the fish died though. Figures ha. Some days I can force myself to lightly jog/dance to music in my room, but then I get right back in bed when I'm done. Some days, I can force myself to work on writing music or something. I wouldn't even consider it to be that that bad for me anymore because at least I'm not currently dealing with total anhedonia like I have in the past, so I can still enjoy a show or movie here and there and I can still enjoy browsing the internet. If my anhedonia is at 100%, I wouldn't even have any interest in coming to this site. I'd just stare into space and try to sleep. Sorry you're dealing with this. It's brutal.

 

[DocNo]

i have it from time to time. not able to decide to do anything cause everything feels meaningless and doesn't feel it can give me any pleasure.
it's like everything including me is a grey swamp. music which normally kicks me doesn't do anything. it's like the life is sucked out of everything and i can't feel anything in this times.
sometimes i even have the impression that it affects even my visual impression on things. when i feel good everything seems to be a bit brighter with more contrast and color. and in bad times especially the brightness feels much lower.

but i am not really bedridden by it. i mostly get up and sometimes after a very short time go back to bed cause it feels meaningless to do anything else. but often i just sit in my big chair with a blanket and just vegetate half eye open in a complete mentally dead condition not being able to even form a simple thought.

every simple decision like standing up and getting some water to drink seems then sometimes like a mountain and just too much to do.

i also realized when my brain is more active then also this basic household things go easier cause part of my brain thinks about stuff and gives me purpose which justifies to do also the basic things and it goes much easier. but when i am empty this basic things feel just annoying and meaningless cause without an active mind it's like all purpose to do anything is lost.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

This is especially a problem when you live in an unfulfilling residential area.
I find this problem disappears completely when in an area that is walkable with pleasant views whether it be natural / semi forested or good urban design . I have felt this way before but if I am living in an area where going outside just to do nothing can be pleasant the problem gets better.

 

[stygal]

After I quit my first job (due to total exhaustion and burnout) I was bedridden for about a year. I rarely showered or even ate. I was just vegetating in bed with an audiobook on repeat because my brain couldn't even handle the information it got from looking at an electronic device.
But my lovely family pressured me to find a therapist and start looking for a new job.
I went to uni after about a year and had to snap out of this behavior eventhough I was far from ready or "healed" in any way.

Nowadays I'm at the brink of crashing again - still fighting it - but yet again have no chance to stay in bed all day due to my job and other responsibilities. I get up every single morning despite total exhaustion. Sometimes it helps to forget about my mental state though because having stuff to do gives you less time to think.

 

[Darkdreamer001]

I spend most of my days in bed. With a lot of effort I manage to take a shower every other day and brush my teeth, but that is basically it. The worst part is the loss of any interests. I used to watch movies or read, now nothing seems appealing, I just spend most of the time staring outside the window. Anyone else in a similar position?

OMG, thank you for being brave and posting this. Since Christmas time I've been feeling this way. I'm usually depressed anyways but it seem like it's getting worse. It's getting harder to get out of bed, I avoid people because they stare at me with weird looks and some act hateful, I get bullied at work. I had coworkers to say they wished I was dead and some plot against to try get to quit or get fired. I'm stress because jobs are hard to find. I stay to myself all the time and just work and go home. I don't fit it in anywhere but in this community here. I know my life could be worse but I struggle with being a positive person. I used to be a more positive before the bullying started. I'm hoping to get "n" someday or find a good substitute and leave this world because I'm an outcast to society. No matter how hard I try I'm not good enough. I have a big heart and I care a lot for people even when I'm surrounded by darkness...it's like a curse.

well at least you guys shower lol. I just stay in bed. Eat. Brush at night. Don't even bother with the shower anymore...it's crazy how bad depression can get to the point of neglecting personal hygiene

I'm barely taking care of my hygiene. I can feel myself slipping more and more away so do I get out of this dark void. It's hard when I feel like the future is going to be awful because of the way things are going it make me want to give up. I'm running out of reasons to stay here.

 

[Nexey]

Not exactly bedridden but my body is very creek-y and sore due to lack of movement. I'm in my 20s and can barely stretch without popping something.

 

[In2TheVoid]

I am stuck in a severe "dorsal vagal" state and find it incredibly hard to get out of bed, do basic tasks I used to do easily, etc

 

[soap]

Never been depressed, at least not in the medical sense. But whenever i get sad i tend to walk and move around instead of staying in bed.

 

[the_final_countdown]

I was extremely productive and high energy before I fell ill.

It takes extraordinary effort just to do basic tasks.

Lately my energy has taken a bit of a toll because I was hit with another health complication. It never seems to stop.

I'm not actively seeking death at the moment, but it wouldn't take that much for me to seek death again.

 

[Sherri]

I spend most of my days in bed. With a lot of effort I manage to take a shower every other day and brush my teeth, but that is basically it. The worst part is the loss of any interests. I used to watch movies or read, now nothing seems appealing, I just spend most of the time staring outside the window. Anyone else in a similar position?

I've been in that position, even taking a shower was a hard task. Then I started to force myself to do it. I'm sorry you are feeling this down, a big hug to you.

 

[J113632]

Sometimes it gets to a point where I'll lay in bed for hours in pain because I have to pee so bad but I just can't get up. I'll keep telling myself this is stupid and to just get up but I literally have nothing in me to do it with. It's like being paralyzed.

 

[popcorn]

Sometimes it gets to a point where I'll lay in bed for hours in pain because I have to pee so bad but I just can't get up. I'll keep telling myself this is stupid and to just get up but I literally have nothing in me to do it with. It's like being paralyzed.

same, especially when i wake up in the morning, i just keep going back to sleep until im in such bad pain and HAVE to go to the toilet, but other times its fades and i just go back to sleep again :)

 

[Nicothe13th]

I stay in bed most of the day, but I do get up when my parents force me to(for meals or to go out) or when I want to use the desktop to listen to music to drown out some thoughts. But I do shower because I live in a hot country and I can't stand the smell of my sweat. Forget the teeth. I used to go out in the evenings for fresh air+escape social situations but kinda winging it now, because I'm more tired these days, so the problem is worse now

Is it weird I like the smell of my own BO?

same, especially when i wake up in the morning, i just keep going back to sleep until im in such bad pain and HAVE to go to the toilet, but other times its fades and i just go back to sleep again :)

Once, when I was really bad, I'd just lay in bed and angle myself into a container...pretty terrible I know.