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manta

manta

its gonna be ok
Mar 26, 2023
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I had a very vivid dream last night where I took my SN, laid back and closed my eyes. I felt a very deep and profound sense of peace after I realized that I was actually about to die. I have had multiple dreams like this over the past few months. Last night in my dream I was entirely convinced it was reality and not a dream.

I'm just curious, has anyone else had these types of dreams?
 
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leaf23

Specialist
Dec 12, 2020
338
Wow. Your question really shook me up because I just realized that although I think about it frequently awake, I've never dreamed myself ctb. I really find this weird and I'm so interested in everybody else's answers now
 
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Galileo3630

Tsundere
Mar 22, 2023
120
I always have dreams of falling, but I don't think that's really a CTB attempt and more of just a jumpy dream.

I also have these weird dreams where there's a plane coming and it drops a nuke right on top of my head or somewhere close to me, then when the nuke explodes I can feel every single bit of pain that comes with the explosion, then I go numb and start to think to myself: "Did I die? Where am I? Is this it?", I get all warm and eventually wake up. I told my gf about this once and she thought I was insane lmfao.
 
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trist

Student
Mar 21, 2023
152
yes. the one i remember the best is when i was with three friends on a high rise, i told them i was going to jump and they didn't care at all. so i jumped and the friends were just like haha look at her go
 
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LoiteringClouds

Tempus fugit
Feb 7, 2023
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I had a very vivid dream last night where I took my SN, laid back and closed my eyes. I felt a very deep and profound sense of peace after I realized that I was actually about to die. I have had multiple dreams like this over the past few months. Last night in my dream I was entirely convinced it was reality and not a dream.

I'm just curious, has anyone else had these types of dreams?
I have had a dream where I tried to take poisonous liquid but couldn't because it tastes like a strong alcoholic drink.
I wanted to drink it but I don't know if I had a suicidal intention.
I don't know if my case counts...
 
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dyn00ss

Member
Mar 3, 2023
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I had a very vivid dream last night where I took my SN, laid back and closed my eyes. I felt a very deep and profound sense of peace after I realized that I was actually about to die. I have had multiple dreams like this over the past few months. Last night in my dream I was entirely convinced it was reality and not a dream.

I'm just curious, has anyone else had these types of dreams?
No, I've already dreamed that my sister had burst her own brains in my room and there was blood everywhere, I was scared
 
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Scacie

Scacie

She/Her
Feb 24, 2023
243
Yup. Been having those basically daily since I got my SN. Its always so calm and peaceful. Looking forward to the actual journey
 
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