New here. I'm in a bad place. Going to be losing my job due to a merger. Bad enough but worse is my past. I've made so many mistakes that have harmed my family. For some reason it's all clear to me now. It's constant, nerves hurt, stomach upset, lost 16 pounds in 3 weeks, not sleeping. As I write this I'm up after only an hour and a half of sleep. Body absolutely crashing. So why am I still here. I have what I need. Has anyone dealt with this amount of anxiety! I've basically been in nervous breakdown mode for a month.
dodo11
Member
- Jan 27, 2024
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I'm sorry you're dealing with crippling anxiety as well. You're not alone. I was in nervous breakdown mode for 5 months. I'm only just emerging out of it. I know how awful it is. I'm still here too and I have what I need to ctb.
Welcome to SaSu!
I can relate and a few years ago, when I made my account here I was in a similar situation. Losing your job, losing anything that is important to us can destroy our lives. I'm so sorry you have to go through this.
Only you can decide for yourself what you're gonna do.
We're here for you
I can relate and a few years ago, when I made my account here I was in a similar situation. Losing your job, losing anything that is important to us can destroy our lives. I'm so sorry you have to go through this.
What's your method?
Only you can decide for yourself what you're gonna do.
We're here for you
Fsh. According to guides here I'm set. No issues with anything needed. Have read everything. Watched the videos. But i just lay here. I'm basically a zombie so what's the point. So frustrating to not just get on with it.What's your method?
Only you can decide for yourself what you're gonna do.
We're here for you
Sorry that we're meeting like this. You need to calm a little bit. Make your mind busy. Read stories here. Most of them will break your heart, some will inspire you. One way or another. When you finally realize that you're found your place in here, than you'll decide what to do next. We're here, and we DO CARE about each other.
Yes, I dealt with that amount of anxiety after I severely injured my back and my career and social life came to an abrupt end. However, I was fortunate in that an SSRI antidepressant (Prozac) completely cured it. It made me feel worse before it made me feel better, though. And the dose I was taking was very low and it took two months to kick in. (It should only take like a month to kick in but I wasn't under the care of a psychiatrist and I got the Prozac from a PCP.)
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Roadrunner
Specialist
- Mar 18, 2024
- 353
I started Prozac last week. Just 20 mg. But nothing can change reality. I'm sorry for being negative. I know it's too early but nothing helping right now. Past four days really worst ever.
MyShadow
Torn between fixing and ending my life
- Aug 27, 2025
- 249
Setback after setback over the past year brought on a severe case of anxiety. It also made my depression and PTSD worse, making everyday life unmanageable. It also created long periods of insomnia, which made all of the other symptoms worse. Every aspect of my life suffered.
In May, I consulted with a doctor to prescribe meds to curb it, yet all the medication did was numb my brain. The anxiety remained and because of the numbing effects of the medication, I stopped taking it.
Slowly the anxiety dropped to a manageable level but it pops up periodically. This is especially true when I am facing difficult things at work. It's so hard to focus on anything when all I feel is that crippling fear. I've never felt anything like it. Existing thoughts of suicide turned into plans, hence why I am on this forum.
In May, I consulted with a doctor to prescribe meds to curb it, yet all the medication did was numb my brain. The anxiety remained and because of the numbing effects of the medication, I stopped taking it.
Slowly the anxiety dropped to a manageable level but it pops up periodically. This is especially true when I am facing difficult things at work. It's so hard to focus on anything when all I feel is that crippling fear. I've never felt anything like it. Existing thoughts of suicide turned into plans, hence why I am on this forum.
I guess my 1st advice is try to prioritize the things you can. Continue looking for employment all day because you don't want homeless as your new problem. You stated you have hurt your family, would you like to explain? Nobody is perfect, we all make mistakes, have you tried apologizing to any of them? I would definitely suggest apologizing and learning to forgive yourself and learning to let things go. When we have so much chaos in our lives, we won't be able to rest. I would definitely see your PCP and explain those symptoms because they have so many medications that can help those symptoms so you have clearly focus.
I went through a time of such high stress that I cried daily. My blood pressure and heart rate was so high by the time I finally went to see my PCP. It's amazing I didn't have a heart attack or stroke. What helped me was the medication he put me on. I was prescribed some benzo's, prozac and 3 blood pressure pills and sleeping medicine. My doctor told me to stay busy. I did everything he advised and I felt better. I still had a lot of problems but the benzos made me calm down so I could deal with all the issues. It was a long road, it wasn't easy. I still have anxiety and on my bad days I take a sleeping pill and rest. I also found youtube videos to be very helpful during this time. My favorite still is putting in my airpods and listening to audio books or music because it forces my brain to focus on what I'm hearing and not thinking so much.
This is your hierarchy of needs of course and your decisions. I personally would start with apologizing to those who you have hurt and ask for forgiveness.
For me, anxiety is a worse hell than depression. And I have both.
