Venting Anxiety About CTB

[OutOfThisBody]

Its coming down to when I'm going to ctb, and I'm feeling really anxious about it. Im trying to plan what I'm going to do and stuff and I'm worried something will go wrong, which causes me alot of stress. I also feel alot of guilt or worry when I think about my family's reactions.

My days now are colored by anxiousness and I'm having alot of nightmares as well. I have stuff I have to do for school before it starts and that just adds to the nerves.

 

[CantDoIt]

Im sorry you're going through this. I feel the exact same way. The guilt is especially strong for me.

This is super understandable and I think it is something that most people will go through to some extent or another during this process.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you suffer in this cruel existence, I imagine it must be really tiring what you are going through. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[esistzeit]

I, too, am extremely nervous about my upcoming attempt. I have everything ready, I just need to drink it. But when the time comes I just can't do it; I'm too scared of what's going to be like. I think it's because when I started to set everything up I was in a really bad place, but now I have temporarily left it. That's why it feels so scary to do it. Maybe when I'm hit by another negative wave again then I'll have the courage to do it.

 

[OutOfThisBody]

I, too, am extremely nervous about my upcoming attempt. I have everything ready, I just need to drink it. But when the time comes I just can't do it; I'm too scared of what's going to be like. I think it's because when I started to set everything up I was in a really bad place, but now I have temporarily left it. That's why it feels so scary to do it. Maybe when I'm hit by another negative wave again then I'll have the courage to do it.

Its making me snap at my family and stuff, I'm so high strung right now.