Another failed attempt last night

[lyssanne]

tried partial again it was painful but i could not seem to blackout.idk what to do but im ready to go.

 

[fisil]

No surprise with your method. Get N or SN.
No surprise with your method. Get N or SN.

 

[Jodes]

tried partial again it was painful but i could not seem to blackout.idk what to do but im ready to go.

I'm so sorry @lyssanne

 

[lyssanne]

No surprise with your method. Get N or SN.
No surprise with your method. Get N or SN.

i have no way to pay for it. so going that route would be next to impossible for me

 

[limone]

You can consider full suspension, it's simple and effective.

 

[Cookiedough8956]

i have no way to pay for it. so going that route would be next to impossible for me

SN isn't that expensive, I think everything would be like roughly $50-$60 (antiemetics, SN, and tagamet). Better than paying into the triple digits (N).

 

[lyssanne]

I'm so sorry @lyssanne

going to do even more research today and make another attempt tonight when everyone is asleep

You can consider full suspension, it's simple and effective.

problem with full suspension for me would be location only options i would have is trees in a forest perverse and i dont want to traumatize my family anymore than having to identify and decaying corpse that animals have feasted on

SN isn't that expensive, I think everything would be like roughly $50-$60 (antiemetics, SN, and tagamet). Better than paying into the triple digits (N).

if had even that i would definitely go that route because it seems so peaceful
partial is the only option it have to do it tonight . i cant feel like this anymore . life has already screwed me over in every way possible and now its giving me hell about dying . im so frustrated.

 

[Lara Francis]

tried partial again it was painful but i could not seem to blackout.idk what to do but im ready to go.

Sorry lyssanne ,its very frustrating.
I hope that you can find peace soon x

 

[lyssanne]

Sorry lyssanne ,its very frustrating.
I hope that you can find peace soon x

its just children and teenagers can get this method right and its successful i research everything and try to do it correctly and it still fails. it is beyond frustrating .

 

[FauxEmotions]

Have you tried with a slipknot and having the loop just under your jaw? I've had success getting to blackout point and I didn't even have the other end anchored. This might be corny but just think of it as ju jitsu except your rolling with yourself and there's letting go of the choke. Luckily it's a blood choke so no feeling of loss of breath. Just take a big inhale before completely tightening the noose and you should be out before you need another breath. I understand different ways for different body types, Hope that helps and you find your peace.

 

[lyssanne]

Have you tried with a slipknot and having the loop just under your jaw? I've had success getting to blackout point and I didn't even have the other end anchored. This might be corny but just think of it as ju jitsu except your rolling with yourself and there's letting go of the choke. Luckily it's a blood choke so no feeling of loss of breath. Just take a big inhale before completely tightening the noose and you should be out before you need another breath. I understand different ways for different body types, Hope that helps and you find your peace.

i will have to try that tonight , thank you for the tip

 

[SadGirl]

Have you tried with a slipknot and having the loop just under your jaw? I've had success getting to blackout point and I didn't even have the other end anchored. This might be corny but just think of it as ju jitsu except your rolling with yourself and there's letting go of the choke. Luckily it's a blood choke so no feeling of loss of breath. Just take a big inhale before completely tightening the noose and you should be out before you need another breath. I understand different ways for different body types, Hope that helps and you find your peace.

how it works ?

 

[FauxEmotions]

i will have to try that tonight , thank you for the tip

You're welcome. Best of luck.

how it works ?

Admittedly, I haven't tried it to the point of passing out, I would let go of the rope before but I definitely feel consciousness slipping every time. I have various hoody strings, one works the best. But, the bathroom in my office has hooks in the wall, I might a slipknot and put it around my neck, put the loose end over the hook and hold it in my hand. Tighten the noose and then slid down the wall. I start to "fall asleep" and then stand back up and or release the noose. Insane euphoria after the blood returns so I'd imagine it's a relatively peaceful way to go. No pain except when I was first trying to find the sweet spot to die. Or if the rope is too elastic it can be painful as it's not doing much to help put me to sleep.

 

[lyssanne]

i just want it to work. i just want to be gone. to me their is no coincidence when life destroys everything you hold near and dear to your heart and takes everything from you that is your fate to take your life. i decided its my time 2 months ago i just cant get it right. all i know is i suffer greatly every single minute of the day

 

[Jodes]

going to do even more research today and make another attempt tonight when everyone is asleep

problem with full suspension for me would be location only options i would have is trees in a forest perverse and i dont want to traumatize my family anymore than having to identify and decaying corpse that animals have feasted on

if had even that i would definitely go that route because it seems so peaceful
partial is the only option it have to do it tonight . i cant feel like this anymore . life has already screwed me over in every way possible and now its giving me hell about dying . im so frustrated.

Please, please, don't do it while frustrated. Unless you have it absolutely planned it's not worth doing it out of frustration!!! The risks are HUGE.

i just want it to work. i just want to be gone. to me their is no coincidence when life destroys everything you hold near and dear to your heart and takes everything from you that is your fate to take your life. i decided its my time 2 months ago i just cant get it right. all i know is i suffer greatly every single minute of the day

I know exactly how you feel. 2 months isn't much I'm afraid to say, It's a lot to go through, but recognise that things can get much worse if this goes wrong. I hate to say it but a method you're not comfortable is a bad method!!!

 

[311]

SN, N, or amitrypline with flubromazolam

 

[lyssanne]

Please, please, don't do it while frustrated. Unless you have it absolutely planned it's not worth doing it out of frustration!!! The risks are HUGE.

I know exactly how you feel. 2 months isn't much I'm afraid to say, It's a lot to go through, but recognise that things can get much worse if this goes wrong. I hate to say it but a method you're not comfortable is a bad method!!!

i understand what you are saying but i cant take another moment on this earth. i have benzos to help with the frustration.

 

[sadsoul]

Good luck if you're trying again, I hope you'll be able to find peace.

 

[Jodes]

You have benzos? Good! Then do LOTS of research - preferably looking for ways to invisage a content life, or failing that, a safe way to die, in reserve for when you are satisfied you really have tried what you can in the moments that face you. Often dealing with each moment in time for what it is helps in a couple of ways...

 

[lyssanne]

Good luck if you're trying again, I hope you'll be able to find peace.

Thank you . i am going to tonight. i hope i will find peace also because im living in absolute hell .

 

[311]

Thank you . i am going to tonight. i hope i will find peace also because im living in absolute hell .

:(

 

[lyssanne]

You have benzos? Good! Then do LOTS of research - preferably looking for ways to invisage a content life, or failing that, a safe way to die, in reserve for when you are satisfied you really have tried what you can in the moments that face you. Often dealing with each moment in time for what it is helps in a couple of ways...

well i always have benzos as i am prescribed them. i just want to go . quickly without to much pain. i have no quality of life left and i have lost everything i hold dear to my heart by no fault of my own . by fault of a shitty psych who put me on a awful med that ruined my brain and my life even after being off it . i lost everything . and its rubbed in my face everyday i cant handle be stuck like this. its time for me to go and quickly. because my familly is already tired of dealing with me and they just dont understand how the meds changed me so much and why i cant be the person they all love. this needs to happen asap i cant do this anymore.

 

[311]

well i always have benzos as i am prescribed them. i just want to go . quickly without to much pain. i have no quality of life left and i have lost everything i hold dear to my heart by no fault of my own . by fault of a shitty psych who put me on a awful med that ruined my brain and my life even after being off it . i lost everything . and its rubbed in my face everyday i cant handle be stuck like this. its time for me to go and quickly. because my familly is already tired of dealing with me and they just dont understand how the meds changed me so much and why i cant be the person they all love. this needs to happen asap i cant do this anymore.

Rupert?

 

[Jodes]

well i always have benzos as i am prescribed them. i just want to go . quickly without to much pain. i have no quality of life left and i have lost everything i hold dear to my heart by no fault of my own . by fault of a shitty psych who put me on a awful med that ruined my brain and my life even after being off it . i lost everything . and its rubbed in my face everyday i cant handle be stuck like this. its time for me to go and quickly. because my familly is already tired of dealing with me and they just dont understand how the meds changed me so much and why i cant be the person they all love. this needs to happen asap i cant do this anymore.

How has it changed you??

 

[lyssanne]

How has it changed you??

for one i can barely function it impaired alot of my cognitive abilities. i used to be exceptionally intelligent and quick witted i am no longer. its taken my ability to laugh and feel joy . i am unable to enjoy almost everything. music i used to love i cant even listen to anymore . im slow and my memory is awful. i cant work i can barley get myself dressed. when i used to be successful and sociable happy and loved life.

 

[Jodes]

Why can't your family accept the changes? Or do you just want that life you expected?

 

[311]

This is a tragic case

 

[Hotsackage]

Partial is very hard to execute properly. Gotta hit that artery

 

[lyssanne]

Why can't your family accept the changes? Or do you just want that life you expected?

because the dont seem to believe that psych meds can do that to you . all i know is my life is ruined i dont want it this way and im stuck with it . so its time to go .

This is a tragic case

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Partial is very hard to execute properly. Gotta hit that artery

is there not methods to ensure you will hit it

 

[FauxEmotions]

In my short but intense amount of time of trying, the artery can be annoying/upsetting to find but when you do, it's incredibly satisfying and seems like it'll be done quick. (As far as passing out).