Annoyed by inability to self harm

[khscarymovie]

Hey all, I have tried cutting this week with a box cutter but I am getting way to queazy and freaked out by it, I didn't go deep at all and barely left marks. Teens and children cut themselves and yet I am missing out on the fun, I would like a relief from this, but my body won't let me cut myself.

I am also using my weight and sweater to make a little noise so I can get off on my own self harm in my own way, but I heard this method could ruin your vocal cords, and I need that for singing.

This is so frustrating! I want to self harm in peace!

The sweater didn't feel that tight but my eyes did get watery and I was coughing a lot. I don't know how dangerous this is so I don't know how close to self harm it is. It feels nice to be in the spot, of maybe maybe. I'm not even really asking anything just ranting.

 

[Valky]

Try not to determine how satisfied you are with the "result" by the looks of it but by the effect that it has.
There is no need to cut yourself deeply to be able to call it real self harm.

 

[DivineSpark]

I am pussy when it comes to pain, so it prevents me from doing any serious damage to myself, maybe it is good, or bad.