And so we have reached the end

[Placo]

I hope I can do it tonight, I'm going on alcohol, diazepam and kratom to get in the right mood; I have been registered on this forum for exactly three months and I must say that for these three months it has been a place of company, a place with like-minded people in a world that tends to be anti-suicide, thus denying one of the fundamental freedoms of that is, the individual to decide about his own life.

I hope that having opened this thread strengthens my motivation to do it, there is nothing else that interests me or that I would like to do; I'll think about it these remaining hours but I don't think I'll find something to further extend my life as has happened so many other times.

"We are like butterflies who flutter for a day and think it is forever."

 

[Worndown]

Have a good flight.

 

[dggtscccvfd]

I hope I can do it tonight, I'm going on alcohol, diazepam and kratom to get in the right mood; I have been registered on this forum for exactly three months and I must say that for these three months it has been a place of company, a place with like-minded people in a world that tends to be anti-suicide, thus denying one of the fundamental freedoms of that is, the individual to decide about his own life.

I hope that having opened this thread strengthens my motivation to do it, there is nothing else that interests me or that I would like to do; I'll think about it these remaining hours but I don't think I'll find something to further extend my life as has happened so many other times.

"We are like butterflies who flutter for a day and think it is forever."

What's your method?

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I hope you finally reach the peace you have sought for so long.

 

[Placo]

What's your method?

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/handcuffs-and-plastic-bag.152861

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the freedom you search for, best wishes.

 

[dggtscccvfd]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/handcuffs-and-plastic-bag.152861

Handcuffs and a plastic bag. Sounds like a tough method to get to work, best of luck!

 

[Placo]

Better to do it now even if my mood isn't terrible than to wait for the depression to get so bad that I don't have the strength to get out of bed, which is why I'm continuing to take antidepressants, even if suicidal, to maintain a minimum of energy.

I'm waiting to digest to be safe, there shouldn't be vomiting among the effects of hypercapnia but better to do it on an empty stomach I think.

 

[Лена]

Better to do it now even if my mood isn't terrible than to wait for the depression to get so bad that I don't have the strength to get out of bed, which is why I'm continuing to take antidepressants, even if suicidal, to maintain a minimum of energy.

I'm waiting to digest to be safe, there shouldn't be vomiting among the effects of hypercapnia but better to do it on an empty stomach I think.

Как вы чувствуете себя?

 

[Placo]

Как вы чувствуете себя?

Quite decided, I'm considering whether a small or large bag is better.

 

[Placo]

I think I'll have to postpone it until tomorrow because the SI subtly pushed me to buy a video game and eat, now I'm so full that I wouldn't be able to do it comfortably and dawn is approaching.

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

how do you feel today?

 

[Placo]

how do you feel today?

Pretty determined and numb, I ate early so tonight I will have an empty stomach; I want to see if SI will stop me even today or not.

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

I'm thinking about this method too
It seems most available to me atm

 

[Placo]

Let's go away! Famous last words are for those who haven't said enough in life.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

Let's go away! Famous last words are for those who haven't said enough in life.

I wish I had the bravery to do it. I wish you peace. <3

 

[Placo]

I'm still here with my immense regret, I can't understand, I must have been there for ten minutes and I still haven't lost consciousness, luckily I didn't cuff my hands otherwise I would have found myself in a mess, maybe I should have waited a little longer or found a bag smaller, I'm really saddened but I don't give up.

Maybe the oxygen entered from two small openings on the sides which are used to transport the bag but all in all they are small, now I'm nervously hungry, I have to stay calm.

 

[Placo]

Tried again, this time it seems to work, I had to remove it after a while due to the discomfort, with handcuffs this will be impossible, I'm continuing to take tranquilizers in the meantime; I think I'll try again now with handcuffs and therefore no escape route.

 

[Placo]

I have to close the handcuffs behind my back almost immediately because after the feeling of suffocation I have the instinct to take off the bag, I've already tried it twice, it takes a bit of courage and it's done.

I'm starting to evaluate some other method at this point, perhaps increasing the dose of sedatives so much that I lose consciousness or combining it with the tourniquet method.

Needless to say, I feel a little bitter, that feeling of suffocation mixed with hyperventilation isn't pleasant but it shouldn't last long.

I've eaten now so I don't think I'll try again anytime soon even though it's frustrating to stay alive and I don't really want to study other methods.

 

[Placo]

Time to go, I will find the courage.

 

[fsociety]

wish you all the best on your journey

 

[fleetingnight]

I'm late, but good luck, sleep well<3

 

[Placo]

I thank you all but unfortunately I'm still here, the last step I have to do to complete the setup is so difficult; yet I took sedatives until I could almost not stand up, the CTB is postponed to tonight or tomorrow, but I must say that with the sedatives in my body the feeling of suffocation was a little less strong so I wouldn't define them as useless.

Now I have to wait before the next attempt.

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

Perhaps this method is too complicated Don't get hurt

 

[Placo]

Perhaps this method is too complicated Don't get hurt

It's not complicated at all, it's the survival instinct that doesn't make me close the second handcuff and face certain death, it's the annoyance of suffocation let's say.

I also tried the tourniquet with various ligatures but it doesn't seem to work, maybe you need a very tight one.

I think I'll do some research on the Internet, dry ice could be useful to me as it makes the CO2 rise quickly or a tornquiet that works, I can't do CTB at the moment anyway.

 

[Placo]

I bought dry ice and tourniquet to enhance the method, the dry ice will be used to release large quantities of CO2 in the bag so that I don't have to go through the asphyxiating phase and lose consciousness quite quickly, I hope the envelope is easy to open.

However, I'm worried about the "time" indication on the tourniquiet, I don't want it to free itself after a while, in any case just set an extended time and that's it.

 

[Placo]

Maybe today we are there, I have reached the limit of boredom, at least something interesting will happen when I die.

 

[Placo]

A little courage and it's done.

 

[sugarh1gh]

Whenever is your day, I wish you a pleasant journey.

And also, you have tons of courage which I admire. Good luck!

 

[Placo]

Something went wrong and I'm still here, I'll talk more about it in the other thread.

Let's see if I can attempt again this morning.