am i selfish for this ?

[mizu23]

i've wanted to ctb for awhile now, but when i met my boyfriend those feelings took a backseat.

well, it's been over a year now and those feelings have come back.

if i were to go through with my plan, would it make me a selfish person to not want my boyfriend to find anyone else ? i feel like one of the only things keeping me here is the thought of the love of my life loving someone that isn't me.

the feeling makes me sick.

 

[huggyob]

it's all depends on the context and your relationship, there's a universe in which your boyfriend has their life shatter completely because of your passing and could potentially blame it all on himself and never truly move on from you or the thought of you since all love would remind him of you. i understand your viewpoint and trust me, i wouldnt want someone i cherished and thought of as mine to forget all about me and have someone else call them theirs. your eyes see what others can not