Venting always wanted to die

[zuksmth]

i dont know why i was born i just wish someone else was born in my place am nothing i dont even wanna live ive never wanted to live even when i was fucking 10 i wish i died i only wish someone else was given birth to, my dad was really abusive he tried murdering me when i was 6 months old and then when i was 10 when me and mom finally ran away she ran away alot of times but always come back theyre finally divorced but i had to live in my grandma's house for 2 years during covid after i came back and lived with my mom slowly she shouted at me so much so i completely stopped talking to her and she's always in my face that oh you wanna move out oh you dont love me but how can i she always shouted, its annoying so fucking annoying she even faked cancer to make me stay but i plan to end my life this october

 

[FuneralCry]

I've also always wished to just not exist, more than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence at all, I hope that you find what you search for.

 

[tunnelV]

Man your mom sounds like my mother in law. Every year there's something new with this unstable borderline bitch. Always taking money from her son after 2 failed marriages and 1 failed long term relationship. Now that she's older and not attractive she uses her son as a surrogate husband. It's fuckin gross. He allows it and I hate them both now. Oh and yeah the fake medical conditions are her specialty. Currently it's a brain tumor, 2 years ago it was a different type of cancer. Now she can't work and needs her son to pay all.of her bills.

Before you do it I hope you tell her exactly what she is a horrible person and a worthless mother. How she doesn't deserve the title how she didn't protect you and she's a coward for returning to someone who's put you at risk. And yeah of course you want to move out..you aren't HER parent she was supposed to be your parent. Move if you want and never look back completely cut her off like her fake cancer. You own her nothing she gave you life and made that life horrible. Horrible enough you don't even want to be in it anymore.

I actually wonder what culture you're in because it sounds similar. I'm American but my husband and mother in law are from eastern Europe.

 

[zuksmth]

Man your mom sounds like my mother in law. Every year there's something new with this unstable borderline bitch. Always taking money from her son after 2 failed marriages and 1 failed long term relationship. Now that she's older and not attractive she uses her son as a surrogate husband. It's fuckin gross. He allows it and I hate them both now. Oh and yeah the fake medical conditions are her specialty. Currently it's a brain tumor, 2 years ago it was a different type of cancer. Now she can't work and needs her son to pay all.of her bills.

Before you do it I hope you tell her exactly what she is a horrible person and a worthless mother. How she doesn't deserve the title how she didn't protect you and she's a coward for returning to someone who's put you at risk. And yeah of course you want to move out..you aren't HER parent she was supposed to be your parent. Move if you want and never look back completely cut her off like her fake cancer. You own her nothing she gave you life and made that life horrible. Horrible enough you don't even want to be in it anymore.

I actually wonder what culture you're in because it sounds similar. I'm American but my husband and mother in law are from eastern Europe.

just curious why are you still married to him?

i dont wanna tell her how she made me feel because in the end i will feel guilty, and i will move but it will take around 4 months which is actually unbearable thats why im planning to end it. Also im from southern asia