fluorine.uranium.99
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- Nov 29, 2024
- 7
On April 8th, I ingested 5g propranolol and 18 mg guanfacine.
Now I know everyone says ODs are rarely fatal. But if you know what you're doing and have the right meds it can be very lethal.
The only reason I'm alive is that I was found 1 hour after ingestion and EMS arrived shortly after. Even then, I was very close to dying. I was in the ICU for a while. They weren't sure I'd make it.
Well this time I will succeed. Imma do it in a forest preserve. this time it'll be:
>4g propranolol
>200 mg prazosin
825 mg atenolol
>5g lamotrigine
All crushed and dissolved in water. I'll try to find some antiemetic to take as well.
If my propranolol dose doesn't get increased I will have to wait longer to get >4g (I have a 3 month supply prescription). So this means I have to be alive for 4-7 more months. It feels like so long. I am going to indulge in my eating disorder to make the wait more bearable. I wish I could just have everything right now so I could do it. Agh, I know I sound so dumb. I could just hang myself right now. I know that. But I want to OD.
Imma try to get my dose increased from 10 to 20 mg BID. It used to be 20 mg BID but when I OD'd they unprescribed me propranolol but I was recently prescribed it again, but at 10 mg BID. 20 mg BID would be WAY better because it would mean I get DOUBLE the medication. Ughhh I really want that. Imma try to get that to happen next appointment.
Now I know everyone says ODs are rarely fatal. But if you know what you're doing and have the right meds it can be very lethal.
The only reason I'm alive is that I was found 1 hour after ingestion and EMS arrived shortly after. Even then, I was very close to dying. I was in the ICU for a while. They weren't sure I'd make it.
Well this time I will succeed. Imma do it in a forest preserve. this time it'll be:
>4g propranolol
>200 mg prazosin
825 mg atenolol
>5g lamotrigine
All crushed and dissolved in water. I'll try to find some antiemetic to take as well.
If my propranolol dose doesn't get increased I will have to wait longer to get >4g (I have a 3 month supply prescription). So this means I have to be alive for 4-7 more months. It feels like so long. I am going to indulge in my eating disorder to make the wait more bearable. I wish I could just have everything right now so I could do it. Agh, I know I sound so dumb. I could just hang myself right now. I know that. But I want to OD.
Imma try to get my dose increased from 10 to 20 mg BID. It used to be 20 mg BID but when I OD'd they unprescribed me propranolol but I was recently prescribed it again, but at 10 mg BID. 20 mg BID would be WAY better because it would mean I get DOUBLE the medication. Ughhh I really want that. Imma try to get that to happen next appointment.
