almost all old members are gone

[StillWaiting]

Don't think I've seen anyone from 2017 or before...

If I remember correctly, the forum started around somewhere in march

 

[HGL91]

If I remember correctly, the forum started around somewhere in march

Oh. March of 2018? That makes sense then lol

 

[Pistolero114]

 

[Donewith_]

Change is the only constant in life - Heraclitus
This is true unfortunately.

 

[Nem]

Same here. I come here when I'm feeling like a piece of shit, and slink away when I realize that I'm an entitled little cunt who's complaining about his tiny problems. I fail to CTB because I'm also a coward, wait a few months, and the cycle repeats.

Hugs bro!

 

[MajorDude]

Also still here!

 

[ImSorryEmma]

That's just how the site is, old people go, new ones come in. An endless cycle

 

[JimFord99]

That's just how the site is, old people go, new ones come in. An endless cycle

Otherwise this site would be dying out

 

[color_me_gone]

Otherwise this site would be dying out

 

[vonvonwantpeace]

I hope one day to be able to leave without CTB.

yea

 

[Blackjack]

What year did this site start?

 

[vonvonwantpeace]

What year did this site start?

2018

 

[pole]

What year did this site start?

March 2018.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I came here after S.S. on reddit was shut down. I was on Time To Go when it started. There used to be a link from TTG to here.
I've been here pretty much since it started. I'm still alive unfortunately.

 

[Sweet emotion]

I hate where I live so much, I don't want to CTB here and traveling to another country costs a lot of money from where I live. The last memories of my life in this shithole? Fuck that. Besides, if you order N and get caught or get caught trying to CTB in another way, they could drag you into a psych ward and keep you in there for months...or years...who knows... The doctors who run them have too much power. People being allowed to leave a psych ward is a privilege... Not really, a right. If someone donated me the money I need, tomorrow, I'd CTB by the end of the week. All these rights people think they have...are more like guidelines for the people in power... There are people in psych wards for life. I'm also poor and do not live anywhere close to an area where there isn't people... If I screw up and don't die right away, someone will find me in less than 15 minutes to 30 minutes. And my credit was ruined, last year. All my credit cards are maxed out. A lot of the people here who are gone, could be trapped in psych wards right now or are currently in a hospital as a vegetable. Because they were in too much of a hurry and failed to come up with a flawless plan. This world truly sees people who are suicidal as horrible criminals. Suicidal people, literally scare the shit out of people because they think someone has to be completely insane to not believe in all the religious bullshit they believe in when it comes to life. The only reason, suicidal people aren't hunted down like terrorists is because they are just suicidal and have no agenda that threatens the people in power. And hunting people down costs resources. So they just wait for someone to fuck up while trying to CTB or someone to express a suicidal thought in real life... Like spiders, they just weave a web because it's not worth it for them to do anything more than that. But being suicidal is still a serious crime. It's like being seen as a witch in the Middle Ages except nowadays people find it immoral to kill witches so they just lock them up. Deep down inside, they probably wish they could just kill me. People today are not progressive. People today are not tolerant. All that is an illusion. Just people acting in a play. They are still the same dumb fucks from hundreds of years ago. I still remember, the look of horror on people's faces, right before I was locked up in a psych ward. It's like my eyes started glowing red and my head started spinning around from their point of view. Most people are fucking primitive savages, today. Humanity was actually more progressive in the past. Ever since the major religions came out, there has been a dumbing down that has been happening for around a thousand years now. All the people who refused to accept these shit religions were killed off, literally. EDIT. I am aware though that some people do not have the luxury to wait when it comes to CTBing because of the situation they are in. I am very grateful, I have this luxury.

Man do I agree with you that doctors have too much damn power. I actually want to beat the hell out of mine. I have Complex Regional Pain Syndrome which is the highest ranking pain condition in medical history. And there are no treatments for it and there is no cure. So pain meds in the only thing people like me have to hang onto. Just to keep us going a little longer. But since actual drug addicts who buy them on the street are overdosing, the FDA and the CDC are putting strict laws on doctors to lower our pain meds. I knew this was coming so I started saving up. Not taking the full amount I should be taking so I have enough to kill myself. I'm so glad I planned ahead. My doctor has me jumping through hoops now to go see all kinds of doctors because he says that doctors who just give out pills will go to jail. Give me a break. With my disorder, I'm never out of pain so when I go there and ask me what my pain level is, it's always the same and they act like it's my fault! It's the disease. It's a malfunction of the brain and spinal chord that sends out false pain signals and never stops. So what the hell do they want from me? I've had this for 14 years. The fact I'm still alive after what I've been through is a miracle. But idk how much longer I can take it. I'm being blackmailed to go to a certain doctor or they are going to fire me as a patient. They pretend like they have your best interest at heart in the beginning and try to make you trust them. But I've been to a lot if pain management doctors who knew othing about my disorder and they screw you over and I know these guys are trying to push me out as a patient. I'd love for them to feel my pain and just say deal with it.

 

[welshie84]

I was on another forum hideout but it got closed down a while ago. So pleased I found this place tbh

 

[woxihuanni]

Deep but transient connections, indeed. You make friends, and soon you die.

It's so morbidly ironic that this is what my ex-partner said of the religion that they sacrificied me to, tango. 'Deep but transient connections'. You don't know what transient means fucker, nobody here is meeting up to fuck on their feet at the next milonga.

 

[Heart of Ice]

It is somewhat surreal to read through a long megathread and seeing the people posting at the start are completely different from the ones posting at the end.

 

[Rachel74]

Are there any mods here that are from the start and what happened to the people that started SS?

 

[Blackjack]

Who is the founder/owner of SS? What country is he/she from?

 

[Rachel74]

Who is the founder/owner of SS? What country is he/she from?

Be interesting to know x

 

[Blackjack]

Be interesting to know x

The investigative journalist is on it. I'll post what I find out.

 

[MercuryAce]

Who is the founder/owner of SS? What country is he/she from?

This site was founded by John M. Suicide in 1867. He died of natural causes at the age of 102 in Bozeman, Montana.

 

[Blackjack]

Who is the founder/owner of SS? What country is he/she from?

Answered my own question:

The Deep Web Suicide Site – VICE

A place where anyone can discuss their darkest thoughts, and get advice on how to do it.

www.vice.com

This site was founded by John M. Suicide in 1867. He died of natural causes at the age of 102 in Bozeman, Montana.

Not true. See my above post.

 

[Rachel74]

It was Apollo, rather spooky as I read that article only yesterday.

The investigative journalist is on it. I'll post what I find out.

Have you ever thought of writing an article about suicide. Not SS but why so many are wanting to commit suicide?

 

[Blackjack]

It was Apollo, rather spooky as I read that article only yesterday.

Have you ever thought of writing an article about suicide. Not SS but why so many are wanting to commit suicide?

Not really, but if I had more time to research that would be a good story idea.

 

[Boonks]

Who is the founder/owner of SS? What country is he/she from?

And the questions begin. Lmfao. Best of luck. You may undergo shock as you discover and open that can of worms. Brace yourself. Consider yourself forewarned.

 

[Rachel74]

And the questions begin. Lmfao. Best of luck. You may undergo shock as you discover and open that can of worms. Brace yourself. Consider yourself forewarned.

I'm now intrigued

 

[Boonks]

I'm now intrigued

But curiosity killed the cat!

 

[Rachel74]

But curiosity killed the cat!

It did but I'm such a nosy bugger!