All this talk about CTB: What is holding you back from just doing it, or at least trying?

[Cockney_Rebel]

As per the title …

 

[deletednumber]

Nothing is just that i failed for the umpteenth time ... and when you realize you can't even kill yourself you feel lost and trapped

 

[SHThrowAway213]

Because survival instinct is a bitch.

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

Because survival instinct is a bitch.

I concur.

It's a bastard.

Alcohol helps.

Nothing is just that i failed for the umpteenth time ... and when you realize you can't even kill yourself you feel lost and trapped

I can completely relate to this.

 

[hʚll]

time alone., i think.
about the s.i. i think everyday that passes i'm getting more used to its tactics to keep me in here, so is like the way my s.i acts is becoming predictable. and when i have time alone, i don't think i will be fooled again. at least i hope lol

 

[Seiko]

Because killing yourself is difficult. According to the American Association of Suicidology, there are twenty-five suicide attempts for one successful suicide, and the odds you doing it successfully are a 100-200:1 ratio against you.

Spoiler: SOURCE

Wayback Machine

A fitting quote from lostallhope.com (before it got removed): "The people who discuss suicide the most, think about it for the longest time, attempt suicide the most, yet fail suicide most often, are those looking for peaceful and painless methods to go."

I'm not encouraging, but rather stating: if you are going to kill yourself—get a gun. It is statistically the most effective method of suicide. I am graciously waiting until my 21st birthday to purchase one in my state. Until then, I am done with my multiple failed attempts at simple suspension. I am willing to live until I have a reliable exit.

 

[HelloHell]

Lack of access to SN or N, and my SI didnt let me execute hanging successfully

 

[logan]

the children, SI

 

[StringPuppet]

I'm trying to see how much longer my family will put up with me

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

As per the title …

Fear of remaining alive after a ctb attempt but with brain damage or disabled. Life is bad enough for me now. don't want to make it worse. So i'm caught in very severe trap between a rock and a hard place. If i don't commit suicide soon i'll suffer extreme torture and unbearable long lasting pain.

i have to do it soon . just have to improve my chances of it suceeding and me actually achieving Death. once i'm dead imo there is no more chance of pain or suffering ever again. All i want is to not suffer torture . but pro-lifers and others say that is no good that i have to suffer.

pro-lifers say i can' t have a choice and they banned things like nembutal pills which were available by prescription decades ago. the only reason nembutal is banned and criminalized is to prevent people from commiting suicide.

The world population is exploding around 7 billion people will soon be 8 billion. artificial intelligence robots are also soon to be here so there is no need for 8 billion people and 20 billion and billions of robots to compete for jobs etc. so these pro-lifers and those that agree with them are insane: they could just let me go and less suffering for all. someone else could have my job house etc. that's logical but they want to keep me here suffering .

 

[WrongPlaceWrongTime]

I don't live alone, so its hard to find a chance to do it w/o being discovered too soon

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

I don't live alone, so its hard to find a chance to do it w/o being discovered too soon

Could you not jump?

Or do what I did once, and book Into a hotel for a night (overdose.)

 

[Carrotcake]

I feel coerced into trying to live/trying more treatment options.

 

[unworthy_]

My family and pets. My brother is not working and I dont know how he would do it if im gone. I think i need life insurance for that. If I dont have them, I wont hesitate for once. Everyday is almost an agony just to live and survive for them

 

[hermes]

My family and pets. My brother is not working and I dont know how he would do it if im gone. I think i need life insurance for that. If I dont have them, I wont hesitate for once. Everyday is almost an agony just to live and survive for them

Life Insurance doesn't cover suicides.

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

That's a bloody good question……
SI, people I love and my cats….. We'll see how much longer I can go on like this…..

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

My children and I'm scared of death it really has held me back

 

[disfiguredone]

Life Insurance doesn't cover suicides.

Not true. The typical life insurance policy has a waiting period and won't pay out if the person commits suicide within the first year (sometimes two) after taking out the policy. This is to prevent people from buying insurance bc they are planning to kill themselves. But after the waiting period ends, the typical life insurance policy will pay out even if the policyholder kills themselves.

I have a policy that I purchased 25 years ago. Last year, after I was diagnosed with an incurable, horribly disfiguring and debilitating disease, I sat down with my insurance agent and asked what would happen if "I chose voluntary euthanasia or ended my own life" and he explained that the policy paid out no matter how I died, that any cause of death, including suicide, was covered as the waiting period was over. He said he gets that question all the time and that it is a common misconception.*

*Each policy has its own specific language, read your policy, and ask your agent to be sure.

 

[hermes]

Not true. The typical life insurance policy has a waiting period and won't pay out if the person commits suicide within the first year (sometimes two) after taking out the policy. This is to prevent people from buying insurance bc they are planning to kill themselves. But after the waiting period ends, the typical life insurance policy will pay out even if the policyholder kills themselves.

I have a policy that I purchased 25 years ago. Last year, after I was diagnosed with an incurable, horribly disfiguring and debilitating disease, I sat down with my insurance agent and asked what would happen if "I chose voluntary euthanasia or ended my own life" and he explained that the policy paid out no matter how I died, that any cause of death, including suicide, was covered as the waiting period was over. He said he gets that question all the time and that it is a common misconception.*

*Each policy has its own specific language, read your policy, and ask your agent to be sure.

Thank You.

My bad. Apologies. I was under the wrong impression.

 

[disfiguredone]

Thank You.

My bad. Apologies. I was under the wrong impression.

Oh no worries, wasn't trying to call you out, I just thought it might be helpful to post bc many people- myself included - assume their life insurance won't pay out.

 

[Nutshell]

Because I want to be 99% sure that I won't land myself in a worse state than I'm in now.

 

[Elysium Searcher]

Sometimes I have a slight hope that with proper help I might be able to make some changes in my life and make it more bearable. While I don't believe at all it's possible to reverse the consequences of everything that I've experienced, maybe there's a slight hope to live a happy life, with some of my issues solved and others made less impactful on my life in a negative way. Sometimes these thoughts distract me from CTB.

Despite of this, I want to CTB soon anyway, not sure when exactly.

 

[FuneralCry]

The survival instinct is the main thing, it is the way we have evolved and it can make doing ctb methods hard. I am worried about failing and being left with consequences. It is hard to take our lives, as humans we all deserve a right to die.

 

[Largeletters]

Like others says, SI is a bitch, and I often don't have the right time to complete my methods.

 

[Celerity]

Because killing yourself is difficult. According to the American Association of Suicidology, there are twenty-five suicide attempts for one successful suicide, and the odds you doing it successfully are a 100-200:1 ratio against you.

Spoiler: SOURCE

Wayback Machine

A fitting quote from lostallhope.com (before it got removed): "The people who discuss suicide the most, think about it for the longest time, attempt suicide the most, yet fail suicide most often, are those looking for peaceful and painless methods to go."

I'm not encouraging, but rather stating: if you are going to kill yourself—get a gun. It is statistically the most effective method of suicide. I am graciously waiting until my 21st birthday to purchase one in my state. Until then, I am done with my multiple failed attempts at simple suspension. I am willing to live until I have a reliable exit.

Yep. Gun or go home for me. There is no other way I'd be willing to go beside doctor-ordered euthanasia, and I know that ain't on offer here in FL.

 

[Foreversad]

The absence ofsolid well decided way

 

[CatTheBus5689]

I'm just making sure this is absolutely what I want and trying to think of one solid reason not to. Maybe life will toss me a bone but I highly doubt it.

Starting to iron out the fine details for my plan though.

 

[weepingfree]

I'm waiting for a few things in the mail, then it's my time to book a hotel room, gather some of my favorite art and get to mixing a deadly drink

 

[Sakura94]

I can imagine things beyond my mind and I don't like to imagine my mother bringing on a stroke after it. And that's after lessening the impact of them not finding my body.
It's true I won't be there to witness the aftermath but until then the images of the possible timeline haunt me.

 

[tiredofbeingme]

Things aren't unbearable yet i suppose