alcohol before jumping to overcome si?

[kk13]

im jumping off the 9th floor balcony and the railing is pretty high like even with a stool itll be hard for me to climb, ive tried before and my legs were shaking so much i could only get one leg on the other side. im gonna need something to overcome the si. ive heard people take alcohol but doesnt alcohol relax your muscles and reduce the impact to your body?
i also have a strip of duloxetine antidepressants will that work? another thing i read to reduce anxiety is drink cold water/eating ice.
i tried searching for another high place without a railing but its not possible. even my building roof is not always accessible.

 

[thelostautistic]

I'm sorry things have got to this point for you. I used alcohol before wanting to jump many times and I wasn't able to push through my si. I'd get myself there and climb over without being scared but as soon as I looked down I froze every time. I just couldn't do it.

 

[imontheloose]

SI is extremely interpersonal. I've seen the aftermath of some suicides that make you wonder how on earth they had the guts to do that. Things like jumping onto a motorised saw in a factory and splitting your body in half, how on earth? But that's just how it is. Some people will jump off a bridge the second they feel any sadness whereas the most miserable person ever haven't the ability to overcome any SI.

Reason I say this is because only you can know which suppressant, or whichever category drug you choose, is enough. And no, alcohol isn't going to save you from jumping off a balcony at all.