Venting Al I crazy for enjoying misery?

[stepanch1k]

Like even on days when I don't feel half bad, I purposely start watching ropefuel or open sasu just to get that dopamine hit. Like I've grown to enjoy the misery and when I'm not miserable I try to seek it, it like gives me so much relief, I can just give up. It's not always like that, it's as if I feel 2 types of misery: the one that makes me miserable and the one that makes me happy where it be reading about other peoples suffering or my own. Is this some sort of coping mechanism or am I psycho or smth?? Do any of you experience this as well?

 

[Soumatou]

if that makes you crazy then i'm also crazy.

 

[dearn]

I do, don't worry, and pretty sure a lot of ppl here too.
It's a coping mechanism, it's comforting and it soothe you in a way. It's more acceptable to live in pain when you subconsciously accept and tolerate or even like it.
It doesn't make you psycho don't worry haha