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NeverEndingPain

NeverEndingPain

So tired of struggling
May 8, 2022
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Any members here that have a fear of leaving their house? Like not even being able to go outside? I feel so alone and I am really struggling right now. I have isolated myself for so long that I don't know what to do and feel like I'm going crazy. I'm worried about every noise I hear and am having such bad anxiety. I feel so trapped. Deep inside I don't want to ctb but the way I am feeling always in a constant state of panic is making me feel like that's my only escape. I'm even scared to leave my room. I'm barely taking care of myself and don't know what to do.
I'm female /45 with no one. That's cause I cut everyone out cause I don't want anyone seeing me this way. Also when I talk to anyone I get more panic and worry.
Does anyone relate ?
I've been posting a lot asking about knots if anyone has noticed 😞
I can't keep living this way. I just can't !!
 
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Enlightened
Aug 14, 2022
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I'm sorry that you're feeling this way. It's truly a terrible feeling.

Yeah totally I'm going through it as well. I think what triggered it is I had a bunch of people following me around and I never know if they're going to hurt me or not. It's kind of developed into something worse. I've been isolated for around the past 9 months. Matter of fact I hadn't left my house in 9 months until a few days ago when we moved to a new house. It's the first time I left the neighborhood in that long and I forgot what the outside even looked like. Yeah it really sucks we have to go through this. I've never dealt with something like this in my life. I mean I've always struggled with anxiety but nothing like this. It's actually part of the reason I haven't CTB yet because I'm afraid someone is going to catch me. So sorry you're going through this.
 
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jodes2

jodes2

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Aug 28, 2022
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Sorry you're suffering. I don't like leaving home either, people make me really anxious. A absolutely dread running into a neighbour and having to make small talk
 
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Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm............
Jul 1, 2020
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not straight up "cant leave my house", but i avoid humans as much as possible. i send my husband (sadly not ex yet) into stores for me and whatnot
 
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Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
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So sorry you are going through this. I understand, I wouldn't leave if I didn't have to work. I would love not to be around people, especially crowds. Dreading christmas traffic.
 
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