
Storm225
Member
- Apr 14, 2021
- 19
Hello Everyone :)
This is my first post so I do apologise if I've breached any of the rules! I've decided I want to CBT (i see everyone using that instead of the actual world)
First of all I can't use a gun as guns are illegal. I have access to a 8 story building however I don't want to traumatize anyone or have anyone clean up the mess left over. I self harm currently but not deep enough to stop my heart. I don't want to hang as 1 it doesn't seem peaceful and 2 I'd only be able to do partial hanging (wardrobe, doorknobs) which I'm afraid I'll just end up standing up as a auto reaction? Plus peoples body after hanging have looked gross.
I live by myself in an apartment and if I plan to do it on a saturday for instance it will be 2 days before they realise I'm missing unless they smell my body first and they send someone over to inevitably find my body so I'm aware that I'll lose control of my bodily functions but I want to look and go peacefully (in bed). I want to OD.
I want to know how much I'll need to OD, to go peacefully. I get prescribed 10mg escitalopram, 750mg litium and 150mg pregabalin daily. My friend has also been giving me 200mg slow release tramadol and she thinks I've been taking them for pain. How much will I need to take to CBT? Will it be peaceful? Do i risk being saved and having brain damage if my body is left for 48 hours?
I'm sorry if this post is not allowed
This is my first post so I do apologise if I've breached any of the rules! I've decided I want to CBT (i see everyone using that instead of the actual world)
First of all I can't use a gun as guns are illegal. I have access to a 8 story building however I don't want to traumatize anyone or have anyone clean up the mess left over. I self harm currently but not deep enough to stop my heart. I don't want to hang as 1 it doesn't seem peaceful and 2 I'd only be able to do partial hanging (wardrobe, doorknobs) which I'm afraid I'll just end up standing up as a auto reaction? Plus peoples body after hanging have looked gross.
I live by myself in an apartment and if I plan to do it on a saturday for instance it will be 2 days before they realise I'm missing unless they smell my body first and they send someone over to inevitably find my body so I'm aware that I'll lose control of my bodily functions but I want to look and go peacefully (in bed). I want to OD.
I want to know how much I'll need to OD, to go peacefully. I get prescribed 10mg escitalopram, 750mg litium and 150mg pregabalin daily. My friend has also been giving me 200mg slow release tramadol and she thinks I've been taking them for pain. How much will I need to take to CBT? Will it be peaceful? Do i risk being saved and having brain damage if my body is left for 48 hours?
I'm sorry if this post is not allowed