Venting absolutely disgusted at myself

[404]

i look absolutely awful even if i put effort in taking care of myself. there's really no point in making myself not look horrendous since nothing will change

not only that, i also have a terrible personality. loud, annoying, desperate for attention and narcissistic.

the two things im afraid of is dying and being alone. i can't believe my fate is those two combined...

if only someone would love me despite everything. i wish i could dream about that at least. much better tham having sleep paralysis.

i feel so empty and all i could do is hate myself at the moment...

 

[cryptoinvestor]

Me too, but the moment someone loves me depsite my repulsive flaws, I hate them for it, I punish them. Ultimately driving them away.

if only someone would love me despite everything

 

[emma99]

Trying to figure out what it means to show and receive love is a cross that no one should have to carry. And without being shown this as a child, it can be a very difficult hill to climb. Life can be hard enough without not knowing how to properly communicate with others. I mean you might as well be a foreigner in your own country speaking a different language.