willitpass
Don’t try to offer me help, I’ve tried everything
- Mar 10, 2020
- 2,638
I don't remember a true childhood innocence. I was severely traumatized by a massive life event caused by my mother at the age of 6. I became an incredibly angry child who was unable to control her temper at home. I was an angel at school, though. 3 years later I became depressed. I've become so desensitized to all of my trauma that often I forget just how young I was. 9 years old. Still just a baby. Not even two full hands of fingers to count my age. And I was slicing my wrists. And by 10 I became suicidal. I had no childhood. It's not like when I'm feeling as awful as I have lately I have a time in my life to look back on and say "I miss feeling like that. Take me back to the good old days". I had none. They were stolen from me. I became so fucked up at such a young age my brain is wired wrong. It's no wonder all treatment has failed. I am beyond repair. I had no chance.