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SoverignDreamer97

SoverignDreamer97

I am never alone.
Mar 29, 2026
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Suppose you are given a 6-month notice, which you have until June 19th to find a job and a place to live before you are kicked to the curb, which in the end of suffering all the uncontrollable variables, you die.

Though you can strive to prevent being on the street, the fact is, people are grass, which is to say, whether you land and keep a job is dependent on uncontrollable variables.

Suppose you've prepared for this in advance, which instead of resisting, you choose to surrender to the outcome, that being death.

Though the world is willing to allow you to end up on the street, perhaps in hopes of scaring you into performing, or that you'd die quietly, upon learning that you intend to die, they panic.

What gives? Isn't death supposed to be a natural consequence for lack of compliance? Why are they flipping out? You didn't make these rules.

Whatever the case, you aren't exactly counting on your death, but rather... a miracle.

Everyone's out here playing Old Maid, where they do their best to avoid being handed a losing card, to the point of having to choose a scapegoat to be their sacrifice; "let someone else be a liability," they say. But after enduring enough suffering, and realizing the game is rigged, the scapegoat says, "so be it", and embraces that card, for "we don't play Old Maid; we play only Old Geezer".
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

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Yes, it's interesting on some level the degree to which people will bend over backwards to keep you in this world, but then immediately look the other way when you humble yourself and ask for help.

It's a little like the right-to-life folks, and I don't want to turn this into a thread about abortion... but you can't ignore the irony of how hard some people will fight to keep babies from being aborted BUT then want to shame single mothers (or fathers) for raising a child on their own AND work to deny them any benefits, welfare, help, etc. to raise that kid that they fought so hard to make sure those people had no choice but to have in the first place.

I experience a version of this with some extended family members who do not at all understand why I am so miserable. They want me to stay alive at practically all costs, but they don't really care that I am miserable all the time. I'm not saying they owe me anything. I'm just saying they clearly would rather me be alive and miserable than dead and out of the painful cycle... because being dead I don't benefit them in any way... but alive I might.
 
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SoverignDreamer97

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I am never alone.
Mar 29, 2026
117
Yes, it's interesting on some level the degree to which people will bend over backwards to keep you in this world, but then immediately look the other way when you humble yourself and ask for help.

It's a little like the right-to-life folks, and I don't want to turn this into a thread about abortion... but you can't ignore the irony of how hard some people will fight to keep babies from being aborted BUT then want to shame single mothers (or fathers) for raising a child on their own AND work to deny them any benefits, welfare, help, etc. to raise that kid that they fought so hard to make sure those people had no choice but to have in the first place.

I experience a version of this with some extended family members who do not at all understand why I am so miserable. They want me to stay alive at practically all costs, but they don't really care that I am miserable all the time. I'm not saying they owe me anything. I'm just saying they clearly would rather me be alive and miserable than dead and out of the painful cycle... because being dead I don't benefit them in any way... but alive I might.
The world hates "liabilities" and would rather they not exist, yet... at the same time, the rules dictate that all life is inherently valuable.

Whatever the case, as much as I'm a people-pleaser, the fact is, I cannot please everyone, and can only control the things I can control— which as my mother would say: I can't bullshit a bullshitter, for 'bullshit recognizes bullshit'. Therefore, if that makes me a liability, why should I live?

If I die, I die; though my father, mother, and the whole world forsake me; the Lord will bring me up. (Esther 4:11, 27:10)
 

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