A place for my words because because sending it to you directly makes me want to throw up

[T^T]

I know I said I thought begging was useless but I want to do nothing more but beg. I know I'm supposed to get over it but I can't. I'm selfish and want you for myself and doesn't get simpler than that. I don't like the thought of you finding someone else, even more I don't like the thought of you getting intimate with someone else and it makes me feel gross. I just want you to be able to call me yours again, I don't care if you yell at me or get angry or start getting distant again. I just want to be yours but I know I ruined that and it's sent me down spiral. I genuinely have never felt this desperate for someone and that also sickens me because I know I will never have you back. I'm sorry for cheating on you and I know a sorry won't fix it but there's nothing else I can say.

I love you.




-R