I went downtown in my city for a walk. All I could think about was how bad things have gotten. This used to be such a vibrant city with so much potential and life. Now, it just looks like a colorful dystopia. That made me realize that I'm leaving at the right time. Everything seems to be turning sour in the world. People really are glued to their phones. The interaction is so scripted, predictable, and fake. I used to lament about not "fitting in." Now, I couldn't be happier that I'm not one of these people. Their artificial, transactional relationships that are only being held together by convenience and fear of being alone.
My life wasn't perfect, my any means. Yet, despite having an abusive mother, being bullied, and rejected by my family, I still managed to have some fun in this life. I look around now, and it just seems so bleak. I look at people younger than me, and there's no light of hope. I guess they see this game for what it is and they're either complying with it or trying to figure out how to change it. Either way, it just seems like this is a good time to leave this world. Everything seems to be on the brink of collapsing. The economy, social order, and even vital things like food supplies, water supplies, and some ecosystems. Change is on the horizon, and not a good one.
I don't know. These are just some of my final thoughts. No real point. I just wanted to express my feelings.
My life wasn't perfect, my any means. Yet, despite having an abusive mother, being bullied, and rejected by my family, I still managed to have some fun in this life. I look around now, and it just seems so bleak. I look at people younger than me, and there's no light of hope. I guess they see this game for what it is and they're either complying with it or trying to figure out how to change it. Either way, it just seems like this is a good time to leave this world. Everything seems to be on the brink of collapsing. The economy, social order, and even vital things like food supplies, water supplies, and some ecosystems. Change is on the horizon, and not a good one.
I don't know. These are just some of my final thoughts. No real point. I just wanted to express my feelings.
