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[gr1lledcheese]

You're able to stay calm during this? Doing anything special to keep yourself

You're able to stay calm during this? Doing anything special to keep yourself busy?

I chickened out and went home.
For the record, my calmness came and went. At times I guess I went into denial.
Right now I'm regretting my decision not to ctb.

 

[Foresight]

So good to see you. Mixed emotions are natural in this situation but you don't have to let it take everything. You've been through enough for the week. Try to get some good rest away from that hotel room. Maybe go see your cat friend soon. You get another chance to love him and be his friend.

 

[LeapOfFaith]

It's totally understandable grilledcheese! I love cats to by the way. My SO has one named Tarzan who always comes to comfort me when I am sad. Black cat with white paws . Make sure that you go get some rest.. times like these are extremely emotional. It felt good to see you write a post in the thread again.

 

[Crazy4u]

welcome back I hope you find your way to recovery

Changing your mind is not chickening out

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I chickened out and went home.
For the record, my calmness came and went. At times I guess I went into denial.
Right now I'm regretting my decision not to ctb.

Selfishly I'm happy you are still with us. I understand what you are going through. I have felt that way when I attempted, also the regret after not being able to CTB.
Wishing you well.

 

[NotStrongEnough]

I chickened out and went home.
For the record, my calmness came and went. At times I guess I went into denial.
Right now I'm regretting my decision not to ctb.

Don't regret. No matter what, we always have tomorrow to ctb. and there's no shame in fear of oblivion. <3 You are valid no matter what.

 

[color_me_gone]

hope you found the peace desired

See post #31 in this thread.

 

[Feeding Pigeons]

I chickened out and went home.
For the record, my calmness came and went. At times I guess I went into denial.
Right now I'm regretting my decision not to ctb.

Hey, it happens. Don't beat yourself up. It simply wasn't the day for it.

 

[Cats26]

I chickened out and went home.
For the record, my calmness came and went. At times I guess I went into denial.
Right now I'm regretting my decision not to ctb.

I am glad to see you are still here. Please do not regret it. Wishing you well.

 

[occamsrazor]

I'm happy to wake up to these news. Tho I support whatever decision you make to be happy and pain free. Take it easy on yourself today

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Don't beat yourself up over not being able to do it. Remember, it's always an option in the future if you feel the need to.