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sohopelessandempty

sohopelessandempty

Still alive, just not active here sometimes so dw
Nov 23, 2025
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(I'm aware this is unrealistic, it's meant to be. Writing about a peaceful death, hopefully this is comforting for others to read too <3)

You know today's the day.

You look around at your room, at all the things you'll never see again. Think about the people you'll never see again. Normally, this would bring you sorrow but this is fantasy so it doesn't cause pain. Instead, you can miss them without feeling upset about it. You were able to do everything you've ever wanted to do before dying. Knowing once you're gone, the universe will be altered. As if you never existed at all. Their lives will be completely rewritten without you in them. Nobody would know you were gone because to them, you were never there. Nobody is forcing you to stay or go.

You've thought deeply about this, and decided that this is your true desire. You don't have to do or prepare anything. You just know that once you fall asleep tonight, you won't wake up again. You'll simply cease to exist. Eventually, vanishing from your room and from life entirely. Peacefully gone. Painless. Feels like regular sleep, but far more comforting. You know when you sleep but are still tired in the morning, as if no amount of sleep is enough, like you crave some sort of deeper eternal rest? This is it. You can change your mind at any time, and there will be no negative consequences regardless of what you choose. This bed, this world, you won't see it ever again. Never having to suffer again. After a long life of suffering, you can finally rest. You deserve peace.

You climb into bed. It feels comfier than normal. Almost as if you could sink into it. You grab your blanket and pillow and whatever else you take to bed, resting your head on the soft pillow. It feels like a cloud. You look around one last time. The dark blue sky peeks through the curtains on one side of the room. On the other side, is your night light, giving the room a cozy atmosphere and a warm tone.

You close your eyes and begin to feel yourself get sleepy. Sleepier and sleepier, so relaxed it's like the in between state of dreaming vs still being awake. Stuck between two worlds.

Eventually, you are in deep sleep. But unlike all the other days of your life, you don't wake up again. Everything seems to softly fade away, you're more comfortable and at peace than you've ever been, as your life force slips away just like your consciousness.

It's over 🫂. You don't have to suffer anymore. Never again. You're at peace now.

<3

(Writer's note: sorry guys idk if I'm a good writer but I tried, I hope this painted a comforting mental picture. I'd love feedback! Maybe I'll even take requests to write about the fantasy version of certain methods, it depends though. Might not be in the mood to write or think about death sometimes. Sadly suicide is never this peaceful and inconsequential in real life, all we can do is pretend. I hope reading this gave you a nice escape. Should I write more? I used to be really into writing years ago, I can't remember why I fell out of it. Also sorry if formatting is bad because it's on a phone, maybe I would've written better on a laptop but I couldn't be bothered to take mine out.)
 
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GASLIGHTER7000

GASLIGHTER7000

august
May 1, 2025
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this is really beautiful and touching... many nights, before i fall asleep i find myself wishing i won't wake up the next day. it would be a dream come true to just die in my sleep, unaware and comfortable. i wish this could happen to me irl. please write more, you're writing is very nice:)
 
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its all wasted .
Mar 17, 2021
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You've put it so beautiful and painted such a calming feeling .. going out in such a way .. truly a well written fantasy.
 
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kurgan

Wanderer
Jun 6, 2025
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Great read! Yes, you should definitely do more.
 
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sohopelessandempty

sohopelessandempty

Still alive, just not active here sometimes so dw
Nov 23, 2025
288
this is really beautiful and touching... many nights, before i fall asleep i find myself wishing i won't wake up the next day. it would be a dream come true to just die in my sleep, unaware and comfortable. i wish this could happen to me irl. please write more, you're writing is very nice:)
This means everything to me, I've just been smiling at replies as silly as that sounds. Thank you so much :). I wish this could happen to me irl too. Sadly all we can do is wish. I hope one day you find the most peace as possible in this shitty world <3. Thanks for taking the time to read my post.
Great read! Yes, you should definitely do more.
All these replies are so sweet guys 🥹 this is making me feel better after a long day
You've put it so beautiful and painted such a calming feeling .. going out in such a way .. truly a well written fantasy.
Thank you :). In an ideal universe we'd get all our fantasies. Wish this didn't have to be just a fantasy. But writing helps me get those feelings out.
 
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scary

find your own way to the Knife
May 1, 2024
146
Love your writing, keep it up. You did a very good job of capturing that feeling into words

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sohopelessandempty

sohopelessandempty

Still alive, just not active here sometimes so dw
Nov 23, 2025
288
Love your writing, keep it up. You did a very good job of capturing that feeling into words

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Thank you. I'll consider getting back into writing, I'm glad it's appreciated. I remember why I stopped now, I wrote a lot as a kid but once my depression got more severe I couldn't do much of anything and just never recovered or went back.
 
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find your own way to the Knife
May 1, 2024
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Thank you. I'll consider getting back into writing, I'm glad it's appreciated. I remember why I stopped now, I wrote a lot as a kid but once my depression got more severe I couldn't do much of anything and just never recovered or went back.
I feel you, I used to love doing things like art when I was younger but my mental health just started getting in the way to the point where I no longer really do it. If you ever feel like/have the energy to write more I'll be here to read it 🫂
 

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