Help A court ruling just pushed me over the edge. I’m going to do it today. Would like advice

[Mitsuki_the_unloved]

there is a big court case that is about to rule and if the verdict goes the way I think I really need to act fast and take my life while I can. I have access to helium, ligature and plenty of medication. How do I sneak out without my fiancee noticing and where is best to do it so nobody has to find my corpse… i dont want to die but I'm left no option

 

[MathConspiracy]

I'm so sorry for you, and although I don't know your case, it's so unfair that judges can literally ruin lives. Wishing you peace in whatever you choose to do

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. But what happened if you wanna share some more details? Will u be imprisoned? How does the court ruling affect you?

This is the most awful feeling not wanting to die but being forced due to external circumstances that we do not have influence on them. I can relate.

There's the Suicide Resource Compilation with lots of info. Nobody can suggest methods directly bc this is your personal decision.

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[areyousafe??]

Do you mind sharing more context? You can always appeal any decision made.

 

[Mitsuki_the_unloved]

It's a Supreme Court case that supplants human rights and the verdict is that I'll never be a woman because I was born wrong so I'm off to my local party shop as we speak to buy helium

 

[Lostmyonlyson]

there is a big court case that is about to rule and if the verdict goes the way I think I really need to act fast and take my life while I can. I have access to helium, ligature and plenty of medication. How do I sneak out without my fiancee noticing and where is best to do it so nobody has to find my corpse… i dont want to die but I'm left no option

Feel you there, a court ruling ruined my life almost 2 years ago, things only got worse since then. Whatever you choose to do, do it safely and peacefully, our souls deserve to rest and not live in eternal struggle.

 

[MathConspiracy]

It's a Supreme Court case that supplants human rights and the verdict is that I'll never be a woman because I was born wrong so I'm off to my local party shop as we speak to buy helium

That really sucks and I'm with you in this, but I need to warn you about the helium.

PURE HELIUM IS NO LONGER SOLD. THERE'S ALWAYS AIR ADDED TO IT. PLEASE DO NOT ATTEMPT THIS.

 

[lunar02102009]

there is a big court case that is about to rule and if the verdict goes the way I think I really need to act fast and take my life while I can. I have access to helium, ligature and plenty of medication. How do I sneak out without my fiancee noticing and where is best to do it so nobody has to find my corpse… i dont want to die but I'm left no option

May i ask is this the UK's court ruling

 

[SVEN]

Nothing will change too much overnight, so maybe best to take no impulsive action, as they're so often the attempts which go wrong,
Best wishes whatever you decide.

Just for information for those outwith the UK, I believe the context for this is a unanimous decision by the 5 UK Supreme Court Judges that the Equalities Act refers to "Biological Women" in its' intended definition of what a "Woman" is. This was a case brought by the Scottish Devolved Administration who maintained that a "Biological Male" who self identified as a "Woman" would be regarded as such, with full access to protected female only spaces, participating in sports etc.
I post this purely as information for members outwith the UK so you can understand what a far reaching and emotive judgement this is for both Trans and Hetero women. And I'm expressing no personal view regarding the ruling. As a hetero male I'm in no position to make any informed comment.

 

[Mitsuki_the_unloved]

im tired of the hate. Im intersex and thats enough for the world to hate on me. Helium got and I don't care if its mixed with air im drugged up cuts feel like nothing to me and ligatuee will finish me if the helium doesnt. Peace

 

[SVEN]

Thinking of you and wishing you nothing but peace and good things, unmet friend.
Sven.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Sending love

 

[imOK]

Party balloon type canisters are fiddly to setup and as someone said, are not guranteed to be pure helium. You might just end up with a raging headache. I recommend Nitrogen which cannot be adulterated with enough oxygen to supply a human without losing all benefits for it's intended function.

I'd read the available resources on this method and take your time to set it all up properly, as you do not want to go wrong here (in the worst case, surviving with brain damage is possible). If you don't feel currently in the state of mind to do this in a rational and organized way, I would wait a bit first. Best of luck.

 

[WatchmeBurn]

It's social murder to deny people their basic rights. This government is beyond the pale, as are the state apparatchiks in the judiciary and the civil service, apparently.

It's also legal erasure of intersex people who I guess are also the targets of transphobe bastards.

 

[Mitsuki_the_unloved]

It's social murder to deny people their basic rights. This government is beyond the pale, as are the state apparatchiks in the judiciary and the civil service, apparently.

It's also legal erasure of intersex people who I guess are also the targets of transphobe bastards.

Yeah im intersex I was born with a vagina and womb but nah dog im now legally erased and have to carry my GRC like a fucking Jude badge. The suicide attempt failed because my fiancee intervened. I took a lot of pills and drank a lot and I messaged a suicide line literally minutes after the ruling and the woman said "accept the facts and deal with it come back later if you want to talk about it more" and ended the chat line.

I woke up and after 3 hours it's not a nightmare it's real and this is the reality we live in, fascist America and the most phobic hateful Black shirt British on the side….

What am I supposed to do???????

 

[Afterglow]

What court ruling?

 

[Kbeau]

That really sucks and I'm with you in this, but I need to warn you about the helium.

PURE HELIUM IS NO LONGER SOLD. THERE'S ALWAYS AIR ADDED TO IT. PLEASE DO NOT ATTEMPT THIS.

I second this

 

[Linda]

there is a big court case that is about to rule and if the verdict goes the way I think I really need to act fast and take my life while I can. I have access to helium, ligature and plenty of medication. How do I sneak out without my fiancee noticing and where is best to do it so nobody has to find my corpse… i dont want to die but I'm left no option

Don't ctb. Resist. Fight. Organize. You will be doing both yourself and millions of other trans people a favor.

 

[Mitsuki_the_unloved]

Don't ctb. Resist. Fight. Organize. You will be doing both yourself and millions of other trans people a favor.

I'm not even trans and no im not fighting for a group of people who ousted me for fighting for them before and not having a penis….

 

[Linda]

I'm not even trans and no im not fighting for a group of people who ousted me for fighting for them before and not having a penis….

Sorry, my mistake. I apologise. I assumed from your original post that you were trans. I see that you clarified the situation in a subsequent post.
But I stand by the point that I was trying to make. When something is wrong with the world, it seems to me preferable to try to make things better than to just give up. You can't think only of youself. You must think of all those other people - some of whom will be in a more difficult situation than yourself - who you can help by resisting.
There are more intersex people in the world than trans people. If you get organized, you will be able to achieve a lot.
Whatever you decide to do, I wish you well.

 

[Deleted account 549]

Is there a reason why your sex is legally male? It's okay if you don't want to answer that. I just find it strange since you seem to have female reproductive organs developed enough to be noticeable and/or detectable (I'm assuming based on one of your comments). Is there a way to run more tests? Maybe you could get another doctors opinion? Start a case to have it changed backed by biological evidence?

I'm just throwing some ideas, I do think it would be possible to do this if you have the right support even with the new ruling.

 

[Mitsuki_the_unloved]

Sorry, my mistake. I apologise. I assumed from your original post that you were trans. I see that you clarified the situation in a subsequent post.
But I stand by the point that I was trying to make. When something is wrong with the

I PROTESTED FOR YEARS AND MET WITH THE GOVERNMENT WITH THE WELSH EQUALITY ALLIANCE TO SORT OUT THE GRA AND WE GOT A PITY COMPROMISE OF A REDUCTION FROM £140 to £5 …. Ive spent my entire life making the world a better place, saving lives medically, being politically active against this exact shit thats ruining lives and I've seen nothing come from it. Ive not found community ive not found humanity ive not found any peace or solidarity in the fact I have to continue living my life for the sake of people who literally could not give a shit… people who've actively raped me and bullied me btw….

It's beyond cruel you'd ask me to fight More when I've been fighting the world my entire life with no more than a thank you from strangers who ignored every cry for help ive ever made….

Is there a reason why your sex is legally male? It's okay if you don't want to answer that. I just find it strange since you seem to have female reproductive organs developed enough to be noticeable and/or detectable (I'm assuming based on one of your comments). Is there a way to run more tests? Maybe you could get another doctors opinion? Start a case to have it changed backed by biological evidence?

I'm just throwing some ideas, I do think it would be possible to do this if you have the right support even with the new ruling.

The process is beyond cooked and they're convinced because I produce no hormones even with female reproductive organs that my birth certificate being male is acceptable (and the one a second doctor wrote as female got written off) yep…. I wish I were making shit up but the government said get a GRC and that will be it…. It was not

 

[Linda]

I PROTESTED FOR YEARS AND MET WITH THE GOVERNMENT WITH THE WELSH EQUALITY ALLIANCE TO SORT OUT THE GRA AND WE GOT A PITY COMPROMISE OF A REDUCTION FROM £140 to £5 …. Ive spent my entire life making the world a better place, saving lives medically, being politically active against this exact shit thats ruining lives and I've seen nothing come from it. Ive not found community ive not found humanity ive not found any peace or solidarity in the fact I have to continue living my life for the sake of people who literally could not give a shit… people who've actively raped me and bullied me btw….

It's beyond cruel you'd ask me to fight More when I've been fighting the world my entire life with no more than a thank you from strangers who ignored every cry for help ive ever made….

The process is beyond cooked and they're convinced because I produce no hormones even with female reproductive organs that my birth certificate being male is acceptable (and the one a second doctor wrote as female got written off) yep…. I wish I were making shit up but the government said get a GRC and that will be it…. It was not

I understand. I have done the same: fighting for over half a century to try to make the world a better place for others. In all that time, I have got thanks from precisely 2 people. (And one of those was not even part of the group I was fighting for, though her daughter was.) I have paid quite a high price for it too. But we can not think only of ourselves. So long as we have the strength to do it, we must think of others.
I realise that you may have come to the end of your strength. If you decide that catching the bus is the only reasonable way forward, I wish you peace. We all have our limits.
If you can find the strength to continue fighting, remember that it's people who don't give up when all seems lost who can sometimes change the world. Think of Nelson Mandela. He had every reason to give up. But somehow he found the strength to carry on fighting.
Whatever you decide, good luck.
(If you would like to PM me, feel free. Some things are more easily discussed when they are not in view of the entire world.)