Help 10-26 Tried my first half hung attempt.

[aezaran]

Hello,

Today was the day that I was planned to go, but unfortunately.

I locked out, blocked windows so some stranger could not magically see, put air pods and music I like, it is sentimental but I also took a teddy bear from my childhood. I am half christian so I said my last words amen, and it just don't feel comfortable enough. I know it sounds funny "Dude u wan't to die why u care" well that uncomfortable was enough for me to stop. Tried fix my rope better, but was not able to find it. (I tried to fix rope because I already two times tested it few days ago, it was more comfortable and felt like I black out so fast. I should mention that I stoped before blacked out on those test. Maybe if I would not stopped I would not be in this situation today.) What's more funny is that I have T1D and that's why I don't use any alcohol before to make my self more numb (Crazy also you want to die but scared to drink :) ).

So after a 3 times I feel more retard than before. Because guess what I have to live with my self for one more week to at least try it again.

Looking forward for some tips? Maybe I should practice black out's or something to just give up.

Also probably will update again if I could not be able to do it. Next try is on 11-02

 

[braintorture]

good luck with the next attempt

 

[bFre3]

I've tried (and failed) partial multiple times. I got close once, but my SI forced me to push myself up.

The biggest problem I face with the slip knot that's recommended to use it that it continuously slides to the side as pressure is applied, making it very uncomfortable as my neck kind of gets stretched along with it. I can't seem to target my arteries as well as I can with my hands either. I've tried adding some padding, using erasers at my arteries, but didn't have much luck. Maybe they could help you?

I hope you have a peaceful week!

 

[itsgone2]

So after a 3 times I feel more retard than before. Because guess what I have to live with my self for one more week to at least try it again

Man I don't. I've been doing visualizations , trying to make a seem normal. But this morning my brain is fighting me. Can't picture it and today would be a good day for it. Frustrated

 

[Ladyybugged]

SI can be such a bitch for real, my previous attempt was partial hanging (a month ago) and i got really close too.

 

[unevencompromise]

Hello,

Today was the day that I was planned to go, but unfortunately.

I locked out, blocked windows so some stranger could not magically see, put air pods and music I like, it is sentimental but I also took a teddy bear from my childhood. I am half christian so I said my last words amen, and it just don't feel comfortable enough. I know it sounds funny "Dude u wan't to die why u care" well that uncomfortable was enough for me to stop. Tried fix my rope better, but was not able to find it. (I tried to fix rope because I already two times tested it few days ago, it was more comfortable and felt like I black out so fast. I should mention that I stoped before blacked out on those test. Maybe if I would not stopped I would not be in this situation today.) What's more funny is that I have T1D and that's why I don't use any alcohol before to make my self more numb (Crazy also you want to die but scared to drink :) ).

So after a 3 times I feel more retard than before. Because guess what I have to live with my self for one more week to at least try it again.

Looking forward for some tips? Maybe I should practice black out's or something to just give up.

Also probably will update again if I could not be able to do it. Next try is on 11-02

I feel really sorry for ya :( my last attempt (which was Aalso by hanging) didn't worked and now i'm feeling just worse... I really hope you can free yourself or better yet save yourself from this suffering <3

 

[wereqryan]

God I wish I could black out. You're having better luck than me.

 

[dead dav]

I tried too last week partial over door noosed myself got noose quite tight but just couldn't black out I think I should go full suspension

 

[eternalpace]

I had so many problems when I tried partial hanging... problems with the rope, problems with its position, and then the survival instinct kicked in. I give a lot of credit to people who successfully use this method.

 

[itsgone2]

Anyone here thinking of fsh instead? Partial seems a way to avoid stepping off a stool. Which I've not been able to do. But that's it. Should work after that