I feel sorry for you becasue I am somewhat like that. Actually I am a combo motor mouth and rub people the wrong way and do not even know it. I am 64 years young and through the years I have had people get introduced to me and they would almost right off the bat say " I do not like you", and I would just stand there and wait for them to leave. Now also I have the habit of talking till people run from me. Now I had a girlfiend once, hey 1 girlfriend in 64 years, what a loser!, and she could walk up to everyone and no one and she was instantly loved. Never figured it out. So, yes I 100% know how you feel and my heart goes out to you. You are such a nice and caring person. LOVE and PEACE to you and lots of brillant sunny days with a soft breeze to pamper you!