Venting "you're stuck in one place, you don't do anything"

[perishsong]

I no longer fucking CARE. Despite years of therapy, tens of meds tried and discarded and adjusted and swapped, whatever self-care books they come up with...it doesn't work. It won't ever work. And I don't give a fuck about it not working. I only feel bad that I fucked up my girlfriend's life, she's crying because of me and is deathly scared of me CTBing... which is more or less inevitable at this point.

 

[nooneyouknow]

the genuine worse situation to be in </3 , I hope you can get whatever you're looking for or wanting. I'm in the same boat roughly (no girlfriend, just one friend with blurred boundary lines) and yeah no this shit sucks. I really hope it works out - whatever that may mean