Your CTB month

[Finalnight]

Mine is this month or the next one, I really hope so.

 

[Dliena]

April but not this year for me.

 

[rottenflesh]

probably june... thats gonna be the month i will finally have the money for my new gun. but if i could id do it right now

 

[hikikomorizombie]

i need to be dead either by the end of this month or feb 5th, otherwise i'll be homeless. & if i still can't get myself to ctb even then, i deserve to suffer atp, lol.

 

[CocoToxBase]

This month for me. Depending on when I can get escorted leave in this shit hole of a psych ward. So done with life and nothings changing my mind. Start of a new year and a end of a miserable life

 

[Leavesfromthevine]

Sometime this month or next month I hope. I need to quit being a baby and just commit even if I can't get my ideal suicide.

 

[wastingpotential]

wouldve been this month but my attempt didn't rly go as planned. idk now

 

[starrchaoz]

I'm leaving in March of this year

 

[1012512]

sometime in late june would be nice though i'm not sure if it's the most realistic time frame. if not then, december.

 

[Gonnerr]

May or june.

 

[HowlerFlamingpaws]

May for me. June latest.

 

[penguinl0v3s]

sometime in late june would be nice though i'm not sure if it's the most realistic time frame. if not then, december.

May or june.

May for me. June latest.

What do you all love about June? Am I missing something?

 

[Gonnerr]

What do you all love about June? Am I missing something?

Maybe the summer solstice, i dont know really.

 

[Abyssal]

April or May

May is more my due date than anything, if I feel ready in April I'll go in April.

 

[dinosavr]

It was supposed to be February but I'm not so sure about it anymore :(

 

[HowlerFlamingpaws]

What do you all love about June? Am I missing something?

For me, it's because May is when I graduate, and I plan to CTB after that, and I don't want to wait too long

 

[Kaliphornia]

I'm not sure. It's hard to know when you'll really be ready. My plan is to acquire all the necessary equipment I'll need for my chosen method, and then just wait for inspiration. It doesn't have to be any particular date. I believe I'll know when the time comes. I've always thought that when someone is really ready to die, all the struggling and agonizing and worrying about the decision drops away, and they simply go CTB. It's not dying per se that's hard, it's becoming ready that's painful.

 

[Decided98]

November this year

 

[Shunya]

Wish I had caught the bus in December, on my birthday but I probably won't be with be waiting until my next one. Need to first get everything on the shopping list. Dont have an exact month in mind, only that I'll probably do it when I feel the pain is unbearable.

 

[iamGaepora]

i need to be dead either by the end of this month or feb 5th, otherwise i'll be homeless. & if i still can't get myself to ctb even then, i deserve to suffer atp, lol.

I'm a new here, so if you've answered this before I'm sorry...but I'm curious what makes you feel like you deserve to suffer? Like what did you do?

 

[notindanger]

July, either this or next year

 

[throneofdispair03]

Shooting for February. I can't do this shit anymore.

 

[hikikomorizombie]

I'm a new here, so if you've answered this before I'm sorry...but I'm curious what makes you feel like you deserve to suffer? Like what did you do?

not deserve in the sense i committed a wrongdoing that i need punishment for. i just mean if i cant get myself to ctb despite everything, even once im homeless, then i cant bitch anymore atp bc i'm the 1 that cant do it & am prolonging my suffering. so that's on me, & i'd deserve it for my weakness.

 

[iamGaepora]

not deserve in the sense i committed a wrongdoing that i need punishment for. i just mean if i cant get myself to ctb despite everything, even once im homeless, then i cant bitch anymore atp bc i'm the 1 that cant do it & am prolonging my suffering. so that's on me, & i'd deserve it for my weakness.

Oh oh I see. Thank you for helping me understand! :)