"You can do better than that"

[suisuiforum]

No I actually fucking can't when I literally can't even handle the existential dread of being alive. Not when I'm actively suicidal and constantly fixate over the ideal way to end my life every single day because I can't take one more second on this shithole of a planet.

My mental state has deteriorated past the state of recovery, and I no longer see any future where I'm happy to be alive. I constantly browse this forum because aside from actually providing useful tips for CTB unlike any other website that will ban any discussion of these topics on sight, this is the only place where I can talk to like-minded individuals when normies don't understand how awful life really is when they are entranced by all their earthly distractions. Back when I was younger and actually willing to "live up to my potential" or whatever, I didn't mind grinding every single day for some elusive goal that would surely make all of this suffering worthwhile, but now I realize that I've been fed so many lies about the world, and the only way out of it is to CTB when I'll never achieve true happiness.

 

[overcomingfear]

I'll never achieve happiness too, but i enjoy what i can. Life is not terribly unbearable, i have to go to work that i don't hate and i'm set. Fuck the world and it's news that don't affect me. Im hoping future will be better than today

 

[FuneralCry]

Living can be painful, it can be hard to be trapped in a hopeless situation, I understand. Most of the people who say platitudes like 'you can do better than that', cannot comprehend what we are going through as they are not suicidal themselves. I see life as a never ending struggle and for me death will be the only way to find peace.

 

[CaliCatCharlie]

I get told the same too and it's rather annoying. People who aren't suicidal because they're in the comfort of their "security blanket" will never understand how people like us feel who are completely bogged down everyday by life. I feel you though, because my mental state has also deteriorated a lot and I can't even imagine ever if I'll ever be happy in life. I've been in this pit since I was a kid.

 

[hʚll]

i am sorry for all your suffering. and that you have to listen to people who only make it worse with their words. i'm same. i think about killing myself 24/7. the sole fact that i perceive this existence is enough to make me want to ctb. the pain is unbearable.when i say to family that i suffer, they look at me like i am crazy, or even a lair, because they just can't get how anyone can suffer from being alive. for them it just seems like i am not trying enough or that i am the one wanting to suffer.i hate them so much
i feel like the only better we can do is to kill ourselves

peace soon.