goodoldnoname923
Wanting to find peace
- Mar 28, 2024
- 835
I mean whats the point right?…i wake up feeling like shit feeling anxious lost etc etc…thinking about blue and the messages again…then just depressive feelings of hopelessness sadness and self hate…then of course there is the loneliness and isolation…i just feel disconnected from the world like no one is there anymore…i've spent most the day either playing gran turismo that does little for me anymore or just browsed SS which i've felt some comfort even got some laughs on here but in the grander scheme of everything i still feel awful and miserable…i don't have the strength to CTB but i don't have the strength to go on either…i'm just stuck in constant limbo
Disconnected and isolated from the world yet not emotionally ready enough to accept my fate and go i just wake up everyday suffering with an inability to pull myself out of it but not enough emotional energy to take myself to the final destination…I'm hopeless just letting my days pass one at a time…achieving and accomplishing nothint but not wanting to just suffering and enduring endless pain…and even though people tell me they care and i know they do i just feel like no one does
I still feel alone i still feel isolated i still feel abandoned…I want to leave this planet but no one wants me to…everyone keeps clinging on for me because they know I won't…sometimes i feel I'm ready then I'm not then i am and it's just emotionally exhausting….i don't know what to do…
Disconnected and isolated from the world yet not emotionally ready enough to accept my fate and go i just wake up everyday suffering with an inability to pull myself out of it but not enough emotional energy to take myself to the final destination…I'm hopeless just letting my days pass one at a time…achieving and accomplishing nothint but not wanting to just suffering and enduring endless pain…and even though people tell me they care and i know they do i just feel like no one does
I still feel alone i still feel isolated i still feel abandoned…I want to leave this planet but no one wants me to…everyone keeps clinging on for me because they know I won't…sometimes i feel I'm ready then I'm not then i am and it's just emotionally exhausting….i don't know what to do…